Chapter 5: I almost went to temptation

Guided by the Director, I headed to the bathroom.

But the toilet and the bathroom were separate.

The toilet was narrow, just enough for one person, but the bathroom was quite spacious.

It seemed the Director used the bathtub often, as bath salts were visible.

I had only used a bathtub when I was very young and never since, so I was a little curious.

But I couldn’t borrow the bathtub at the Director’s house, so I decided to settle for a simple shower.

“…”

I swallowed hard and subtly peeked inside my clothes.

Two fair hills leaned against each other, forming a peculiar valley.

A normal woman would have soft fabric covering those two hills, but I wasn’t a normal woman, so there was nothing like that.

All I was wearing were boxer briefs, shorts, and a hoodie.

I wasn’t wearing a bra or anything.

“It feels a bit strange to take them off….”

I hadn’t properly washed since waking up, so I felt quite sticky.

Still, I wanted to shower.

But I was reluctant to take off my clothes.

Two conflicting emotions clashed, but soon I arrived at the conclusion to finish the shower quickly.

I just had to avoid looking as much as possible.

Even as I took off my hoodie, I diligently kept my gaze upwards.

This made taking off my pants quite troublesome, but I couldn’t help it as I felt a strong aversion to looking down.

I loosely hung my hoodie and pants on the hanger and took off my underwear.

Feeling a strange sense of liberation, I stepped into the bathroom.

And just as I was about to start the shower, I encountered a crisis.

“My hair is too long….”

My long, flowing hair covered my shoulders, lower back, and even my chest.

Thanks to that, I could see my current appearance in the mirror.

In the mirror was a ghost one might see in a horror movie.

The only flaw was that the ghost was so beautiful it wasn’t scary at all.

“I should cut it.”

It’s fine for it to be long, but there’s a limit.

This is too much.

Thinking about what style to cut it, I turned on the warm water and immediately soaked my hair.

Water flowed down from the crown of my head, slowly wetting my body.

Warmth was returning to my body, which had been cold.

Feeling the warm energy gradually spread, I exhaled deeply.

It felt as if all the dirt, both from my body and my mind, was being washed away.

When my body was adequately warm, I squeezed out shampoo to wash my hair, but there wasn’t nearly enough lather.

The amount of shampoo I used had ridiculously increased, proportional to my hair length.

When it was short, one pump was truly enough.

As I rubbed my slightly heavy, water-soaked hair as if doing laundry, my reflection in the mirror caught my eye.

It was like a scene from a comic book I had read as a child.

The image of a goddess bathing and washing her hair in a lake.

Of course, this wasn’t a lake, nor was I a goddess, but that thought came to mind the moment I saw it.

“Ah…”

While I was staring blankly at the mirror without realizing it, foam almost got into my eyes.

I quickly rinsed off the foam and looked at the mirror again.

And though I didn’t intend to, my gaze inadvertently dropped downwards.

No, perhaps I did intend to.

In truth, I had felt repulsion, but at some point, my curiosity grew stronger.

I was incredibly curious about what my body, now a woman’s, truly looked like.

As I stared intently at my chest, hidden by my hair, my face grew hot.

I wasn’t sure if it was due to the hot steam filling the bathroom, or if blood rushed to my face out of embarrassment.

Honestly, I didn’t know, but my face was just hot.

“Hoo…”

My hand moved simultaneously with my trembling exhale.

I slowly moved aside the hair that was vaguely covering my chest.

It felt similar to when I used to secretly snatch snacks as a child.

Diligently ignoring my needlessly pounding heart and trembling breath, I quickly! pulled my hair away.

“Hmph…”

An odd sound escaped me at the sight of the pinkish buds.

Unlike the rather large hills, the faintly peach-colored buds, so incredibly cute, were fixed in my gaze and wouldn’t let go.

No, it was just that I couldn’t take my eyes off them.

To think I had to touch these now.

I was afraid that the moment I touched them, it wouldn’t be a normal shower anymore.

I definitely wouldn’t be able to resist fondling other places too.

And while I was thinking such thoughts, my foolish hand, as if on display, began to caress the soft mounds.

“Ugh…”

I tried to firmly close my lips to prevent any sound from escaping, but it was no use at all.

I had clearly tried my best not to care, but my body had, at some point, heated up on its own.

A soft and tender sensation filled my hand, and slender fingers gently pressed my chest.

My fingers, burrowing into the mounds, felt tingly yet hot.

I couldn’t tell if my chest was hot or if my fingers were hot.

“Haaah…”

The hot sensation swirling in my chest, combined with the heat in my flushed face, began to make my head hazy.

I didn’t know when I had squeezed it out again, but a liquid with a different scent than shampoo was pooling in my hand.

It was probably body wash, wasn’t it?

I slowly, yet evenly, applied the warm-scented liquid, starting from between my breasts, in a circular motion.

“Hnng…”

My hand, slowly drawing circles, passed over my entire chest as if massaging it, eventually reaching the slightly hardened buds.

As I gently pressed and massaged with my palm, I felt the heat gathered in my palm slowly spread as if permeating my chest.

“Ugh…!”

Now, I completely slipped my hand under my breast and squeezed upwards as if milking it.

I couldn’t tell if I was showering or doing something else entirely.

“Lo-Lord, please, don’t let me fall into temptation… into temptation… Save me from the evil that tries to… tempt me….”

A short prayer that habitually came out before I did something I shouldn’t.

A prayer that didn’t necessarily need to be spoken aloud, but had become a habit.

Normally, the moment I uttered this prayer, I should realize my mistake and stop.

But somehow, my hand showed no signs of stopping.

Instead, I bit my lip slightly, flustered by my hand’s increasingly rough movements.

“Ugh…!”

The heat that had spread from my chest to my head now flowed downwards.

It slowly overflowed from my lower abdomen, trickling down between my legs.

With the ticklish heat, my hand instinctively moved from my chest to my belly, and from my belly to between my legs.

Just before my hand, which had brushed past the soft sensation of my thighs, reached the heated spot.

Feeling my heart pound, I forcefully lifted my head.

Then, my eyes met with a woman covered in foam, breathing heavily.

And realizing that the woman was my reflection in the mirror, a belated sense of self-reproach washed over me.

“Lord, please keep me from falling into temptation… and save me from evil….”

Staring blankly at my desire-filled eyes, I offered a prayer.

My two eyes, already stained with pleasure, urged me to stop my foolish thoughts and move my hand quickly.

However, thanks to reason’s plea that I must not succumb to temptation, I was able to stop the hand that was about to cross the final line.

Still, my body was already burning hot.

If I left it like this, I would fall into temptation again and touch myself.

The warm water spraying from the showerhead soon turned cold.

And with that water, I rinsed my foam-covered body.

The heat that had accumulated inside my body was slowly consumed by the sudden onslaught of cold, gradually cooling down.

Only then did I realize what I had done.

“I’ve got one more thing to pray for now….”

I had been taught that such acts should be avoided if possible.

Originally, it was a grave sin called the sin of masturbation.

However, the Director had told me not to consider it too great a sin.

Of course, he also said that didn’t mean I should do such things indiscriminately.

He said that excess harms both body and mind.

But to do such a thing the very day I became a woman, it was absolutely unacceptable.

Finishing my shower in a hurry, I immediately put on the clothes I had taken off and left the bathroom.

The Director, who had been lying on the sofa, was nowhere to be seen.

He had said he had work to do late, so perhaps he was busy with something.

Being left alone in the stylish yet silent living room, I felt a strange sensation.

But for now, this silence was just perfect.

After sitting on the sofa, I closed my eyes and quietly made the sign of the cross.

It was a bit late, and being in someone else’s house made it slightly uncomfortable, but having committed a sin, I wanted to finish quickly.

Fearing I might disturb the Director’s work, I recited the prayer as quietly as possible.

I recalled the worst sin of the day, begged for forgiveness, and even prayed, though it seemed almost impossible, to return to being a man.

Had about five minutes passed?

After finishing a prayer that was long if long and short if short, I opened my eyes and raised my head.

“…What are you doing?”

I glared at the Director, who was squatting and staring intently at me, and asked.

His expression, as if he had seen something amusing and was intrigued, was very uncomfortable.

“I’ve never seen someone pray before, so I was just watching. Why?”

“…Did you hear?”

“No, you were just muttering something, so I couldn’t hear anything.”

“Then it’s fine.”

“Why? What did you pray for?”

“To turn back into a man.”

“Really? But for that, wasn’t the prayer incredibly long?”

“Everyone usually does this much.”

“I heard some people don’t do it at all, so you’re a devout believer, aren’t you?”

“Well, it’s not something you can force, so that might be the case. And I’m not that devout, like attending mass and all. It’s just become a habit now, so it feels awkward not to do it. Anyway, weren’t you working?”

“Oh, well, I figured it was about time for the delivery to arrive, so I came out to rest.”

When I asked, looking at the Director’s wristwatch to change the subject, he stood up and stretched.

He had changed his clothes at some point; he was wearing typical home attire.

“By the way, did you pray without properly drying your hair?”

“Ah…”

Now that he mentioned it, my hair was damp because I had only roughly wiped it.

I hadn’t felt it because my hoodie was quite thick, but my clothes were also a little wet.

“Hey, you rascal, didn’t I tell you every time to dry your hair properly? Are you going to be like that even as a woman?”

“I’m sorry….”

“It’s fine. Come with me, I’ll dry your hair.”

Following the Director into the bedroom, I was seated in front of a vanity.

There was a ton of makeup.

“Director, you’re a man, but you have a lot of makeup.”

“Hey, you, that’s a sexist remark. Haven’t I told you every time to watch your mouth?”

“But we’re inside the house right now.”

“Your usual behavior creates the image others see of you. If you do well normally, you won’t regret it later.”

“Yes.”

Feeling the warm air and large hands running through my hair, I closed my eyes.

It felt like being at a hair salon.

“Your hair is too long. I should cut it a bit, hey.”

“I was planning to. It was hard to wash my hair.”

“Should I cut it for you?”

“I’ll just go to a hair salon. Director, do you cut your own hair?”

“No, I was a barber in the military.”

“You say such scary things so casually….”

“Don’t worry. I have no intention of shaving your head bald.”

“I’m going to a salon, so don’t touch it.”

“Alright.”

My hair was so long that drying it seemed to take as long as my prayer.

Still, touching my well-dried hair, it felt soft, which made me feel good.

“By the way, when are the chicken and pizza coming?”

“Won’t they arrive soon? Maybe other houses ordered late-night snacks too, which is why it’s delayed.”

“For us, this is dinner, though.”

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Just as he asked when it would arrive, the doorbell rang loudly, as if a tiger appears when its name is spoken.

“I’ll get it.”

“The guest should just wait. Or at least get some cups out.”

“Yes.”

Being indebted, I tried to do something, but he pushed me towards the kitchen and left.

As I roughly took out two cups from the cupboard and placed them on the table, the Director, who had received the chicken and pizza, immediately began to lay out the food.

Feeling my mouth water at the scent of chicken, which I hadn’t smelled in a long time, I filled the cups with the accompanying cola.

“Good grief… Hey, it’s not going to run away, so take your time.”

“Huh?”

Startled by the Director’s voice, I looked up, and he pointed at the cup with his finger.

Looking down at the cup, foam was on the verge of overflowing because I had filled it too quickly.

“S-Sorry….”

I quickly licked up the foam that was slightly overflowing.

Fortunately, not much had spilled.

“You must really want to eat it if your eyes are just glued to the chicken.”

“It’s my first time eating it in months, so I couldn’t help myself….”

“Right, since it’s been a long time, eat slowly. Don’t get indigestion from eating too fast… No, wait. You ate it when the debut group was announced, didn’t you?”

“While I was on the phone, the hyungs ate it all, so I barely got any.”

“Is that so? Then you can eat a lot today. I purposely ordered a lot so you could eat your fill.”

“That’s too much….”

Once everything was laid out, the quantity was quite substantial.

The chicken seemed to be one whole chicken, half-and-half, but there were two large pizzas.

For me, who had a rather small appetite even when I was a man, it was too much.

“You eat all the chicken. I’ll eat the pizza.”

“You’re not having chicken?”

“You eat plenty. I prefer pizza.”

The Director said that and took a large bite of pizza.

Seeing the cheese stretch, I also wanted to eat pizza.

“I want some pizza too.”

“Eat up. I purposely ordered two pizzas so you could eat too.”

“Oh…”

I nodded slightly and quietly made the sign of the cross.

“I’ll eat well.”

“Eat a lot.”

“Yes.”

Putting the chicken, which I hadn’t eaten in a very long time, into my mouth made me smile involuntarily.

It was so delicious that I couldn’t tell if it was the chicken melting in my mouth or my own tongue.

It was also funny that I was eating chicken right after becoming a woman, but for now, I didn’t want to lose this happiness, so I decided to focus on the chicken.