Chapter 53: Twisted Relationship (4)

I was disconcerted by the contradiction of losing my freedom in a space meant only for me.

If it weren’t for the softness of the bed against my back, I might have been overwhelmed by the intensity of Alpha’s emotions pouring out from the front.

“Wait a sec…!”

“I refuse.”

No, I was already being crushed, having given up on resisting because it was more overwhelming than I could handle.

The reason I was sinking deeper into the bed mattress than usual was none other than Alpha.

As if she had been waiting for the moment I was flustered, she finally put into action the plan she had been constantly revising and supplementing in her head.

For that reason, Alpha’s movements were so fast and precise that I couldn’t dare to cope with them.

First, she forced my hands above my head, stretching them out, and then firmly grasped both wrists with her right hand.

Although it would leave scars, given the vampire’s physical abilities that were far superior to those of ordinary humans, she valued secure restraint more than those petty wounds.

Then, she placed her knee between my legs.

I guess that meant she would crush my stomach to inflict pain if I resisted.

I could easily figure out what the stance meant without her having to explain it.

From that moment on, I was swept away by an indescribable sensation, and I almost burst out laughing.

It was out of sync with the situation of being restrained, so I somehow swallowed it down, but if I had let it out, quite a large amount would have erupted.

Unable to bear the feeling of my chest tightening as I forcibly swallowed it, I eventually sighed.

“Queen Yeres.”

Alpha frowned at the sigh, which echoed louder than expected.

Her polite tone contrasted with her expression, which was unique, so I stared at her quietly, and she also sighed deeply before wrapping her remaining left hand around my waist.

Then, she slowly leaned in.

“I will be rude for a moment, or rather, for a long time.”

Time, which is supposed to be equal to everyone, seemed to be discriminating against me today.

I described it as slowly approaching, but before I knew it, we were close enough that our lips were almost touching.

Her time was distinctively faster than mine, so I couldn’t refuse the approaching future.

“So, if you dislike it, please close your eyes.”

I could feel a burning heat in her tone, which was closer to an order than a request.

Was she embarrassed to reveal the feelings she had hidden her whole life?

Or maybe it was because she was excited by the reality of a queen’s first subordinate daring to r*pe the queen.

Whatever it was, Alpha had even lost the vampire’s unique coolness and was forcing her love on me.

Just like the magical girl Happy, or like I had done to Hyunseo.

So, I didn’t refuse.

The future that was coming would surely be sweet and thrilling.

I was already addicted to that taste.

Even though the love that Alpha wanted from me and the love that I gave to Alpha were the same in words but different in meaning, I thought that this was okay in its own way and slowly closed my eyes.

I just hoped it would be less than the love I shared with Hyunseo.

I offered a prayer in my heart, not knowing to whom I was praying.

“Queen.”

“…Yeah.”

“Thank you for understanding someone as lowly as me.”

Finally, the moment when her time and my time became equal arrived.

The soft sensation I felt when our lips met was clearer than I had imagined.

“I’m sorry, Queen.”

“What for?”

“I can’t be satisfied with just this.”

Was it because she was a vampire, but her appearance was similar to a human?

Or maybe it was because we hadn’t lived ordinary lives.

Alpha’s attitude of forcing her love was the same as Happy’s.

Her tongue, which appeared between her lips, stimulated my senses, which were more sensitive than usual because my eyes were closed.

“Ouch…!”

Then, when my lip was bitten by the vampire’s sharp teeth, I groaned.

She didn’t bite with all her strength, so no blood flowed, but I, weakened by being crushed by unfamiliar love, couldn’t bear the pain and opened my lips.

Then, Alpha’s tongue invaded my mouth.

First, she began to lick my tongue like a candy, and then she showed off cunning movements, smearing saliva all over my mouth.

The amount that was gradually filling up was too much to bear, so I tried to spit it out or swallow it, but it wasn’t easy because of Alpha’s interference.

Could it be that she wanted to see me overflow?

A strange perversion that didn’t sit well with me, so I forcibly turned my head to the side and spat out the foreign substance.

“Queen Yeres.”

It was definitely a perversion.

Alpha’s voice, with her excitement subsided by a bit of anger, was quite seductive.

When I turned my head back, her distorted expression came into view.

“Did you call me?”

…D*mn it.

It wasn’t the time to be worrying about Alpha.

I was more broken than she was.

The sticky tone I heard when I opened my mouth was creepy.

I hated myself for being excited even while being r*ped.

I felt like I had become something less than a pr*stitute, so I spat out all the foreign substance that remained in my mouth.

“Please don’t resist.”

What exactly was I not supposed to resist?

The kiss? Or the twisted perversion?

I could tolerate the former, no.

I was enjoying the kiss as much as Alpha was, so I had no intention of resisting.

However, I couldn’t accept the twisted perversion.

I opened my mouth to convey this point.

…
…

“I’m sorry.”

I couldn’t.

My body, already accustomed to the abuse of being forced to be loved, ignored the sentence I had organized in my head, saying that even that wasn’t bad.

Just as I was about to open my mouth again, the kissing began.

With the declaration that I wouldn’t resist, my restrained hands loosened.

The love that began with coercion was sweet and thrilling this time too.

Love has to be like that.

Even if it doesn’t start that way from the beginning, or even if the time it takes to reach a bitter separation is ridiculously short.

The intermediate process of sharing emotions with the person you love must be sweeter and more thrilling than anything else in the world.

No one knows exactly why it has to be that way.

But even a heartless person who has never experienced love.

Even a kind person who has repeated love several times.

Everyone thinks that love must be like that, and I was no different from them.

Even when I pretended to love the magical girl to raise my pride, which had been shattered by the abuse.

Even when I succumbed to the punishment given by ‘Quest Jewel’ and ended up loving Happy.

The sweetness that lingered in my mouth and the thrill that ran through my spine were genuine.

It was the same this time too.

The love that started with the bitter smell of blood was gradually starting to become sweet.

However, it was too fast.

Her hand, which had been wrapped around my waist, slowly began to move, revealing the innate vulgarity of living creatures that had been concealed by the wrapping paper of love.

“Wait a sec.”

“This isn’t it. Don’t do this, Alpha.”

I was initially puzzled by the action that was performed without going through my brain.

I liked Alpha’s attitude of forcing her love on me like Happy, so why did I reject her touch?

…
…

It was because of a truly insignificant yet precious reason.

It was ‘like Happy,’ not Happy, and not Hyunseo either.

She was just my first subordinate, Alpha.

“Queen Yeres. Please.”

“Begging won’t do you any good.”

At the firm refusal, the blood on the floor, which had been quiet since I was laid down on the bed, began to bubble up.

Her pupils, which had boasted a pink diamond color, were also dyed garnet red.

However, it was an awkwardness I had already experienced, so I wasn’t as flustered as I was the first time.

This time, I couldn’t bear it, so I also began to gather water in my hands and draw magic.

“Alpha.”

“…Did you call me, Queen?”

“I’m sorry to ruin the mood, but I have some advice for you.”

“You can say anything you want.”

“I can’t love you the way you want me to.”

“…”

“But I can love you in my own way, so I’m putting up with it.”

“…I see.”

No matter how blinded by love she was, she couldn’t ignore the difference in our skills, could she?

Alpha’s pupils, hurt by the short but firm conversation, returned to their usual pink diamond color.

The same was true for the blood bubbling on the floor.

“Then… can I take that to mean that you will forgive me for doing anything as long as I don’t cross the line?”

She hadn’t given up.

She looked at me with an expression that mixed some happiness and a little bit of expectation with a large amount of sadness.

She gathered the hand that had been touching the hook and the hand that had failed to restrain me, picked me up, and sat me on her lap.

“…Yeah.”

“Thank you, Queen.”

As I nodded, the vampire’s sharp teeth pierced my shoulder.

The moment came when I regretted the past, when I was arrogant enough to think that I didn’t feel awkward about the unusual blood flow.

The directionality, which was aimed at blood transfusion rather than blood donation, was so rough that I kept groaning.

If it had been a normal blood transfusion, I wouldn’t have done that.

My consciousness gradually faded due to Alpha’s blood transfusion, which was untimely and didn’t even care about cleanliness.

“Wait a sec…! It’s too fast!”

Alpha’s blood, which had flowed out due to the difference in pressure, stained the bed sheets.

I thought for a moment that it was like the traces that appear when a woman loses her precious membrane.

I ended up scolding her because I hated the awkwardness of my must-dry shelter becoming damp due to the excessive amount.

Alpha didn’t care.

On the contrary, as if she had made up her mind that it wouldn’t be a waste to give her precious blood to the queen she had served her whole life.

My scolding rather became the starting point of excess that went beyond what was excessive.

It was only when I was about to have my body taken over by the vampire that I realized why.

Her blood contained a firm emotion.

It was a love only for me.

“Queen.”

Finally, the blood transfusion was over.

When the sharp teeth that had pierced my shoulder flickered before my eyes, Alpha was also panting, as if she was exhausted.

She was about to take off my clothes, dominated by instinct, but stopped, clenching her fist tightly.

Instead, she licked my shoulder.

She slowly came up and brought her blood-stained lips closer.

It was a gruesome sight, but was it because my body was filled with the vampire’s blood?

I licked her lips first.

Then, we kissed, and as time passed, her tongue gradually began to move down.

This time too, she didn’t take off my clothes.

She simply touched the flesh that had risen over the dress softly, stimulating the protruding part.

This much is okay, right?

Even I didn’t know what I was using as a standard.

“Bite me.”

“Understood.”

“Ugh…!”

After groaning at the momentary pain, I grabbed Alpha’s face and lifted it up.

Then, I bit her upper lip with teeth that weren’t as sharp as a vampire’s.

What should I do now?

What desires can I pull out?

How should I share love with Alpha?

The brain, addicted to the sweetness and thrill of love, began to forget the line it had been using as a standard.

So, I gently lowered the shoulder strap of the dress…

[♪ ♪ ♪]

At that moment, the ringtone rang from the smartphone I had snatched from Hyunseo.

[ Eres unnie, let’s make a deal. ]

When I took it out of my bosom, the text that appeared on the screen stole the love I had been sharing with Alpha.

“Queen Yeres.”

She was the opposite of me.

“Could that be the magical girl?”

The atmosphere began to fluctuate at the vampire’s anger at having her happy moment disturbed.