Chapter 8: Perfect Refutation Isn’t Important Anyway

In my slightly over one year of streaming, what I learned was that

[Hiro, please explain quickly]

There are people who come not to watch the stream, but to look for women.

These kinds of people don’t go to mainstream broadcasts with hundreds or thousands of viewers.

At best, they wander around the rooms of female streamers who stream with a hundred viewers, usually around fifty, and hit on them.

The so-called ‘yeomisae’ (men obsessed with women) don’t see streamers as streamers.

Therefore, whether the stream fails or not, if they think they can’t own them, they try to ruin everything.

I thought I had chased all those kinds of people away, but

Even though I was a netkama streamer, I was clearly a man.

Since my sexual preferences were also very normal and standard for a man, I naturally didn’t like people seeing me as a woman and confessing their feelings.

No, that’s not right

Even if I were a woman, I don’t think I would have liked those kinds of people.

That’s why I chased away all those kinds of people and only kept the people who liked me as a character.

Even if the stream’s growth was slow, I thought it was the right path.

[Are you happy deceiving viewers like that?]

But why are they still here?

Honestly, I wasn’t so much taken aback as I was dumbfounded.

The way they were the only one biting and picking a fight, even though no one else was bothering me.

In the first place, when I thought about it, I had nothing to feel guilty about.

I got angry a little while ago because I was overwhelmed in the middle of a hectic situation, and now that I’ve calmed down and thought about it carefully, it’s not like I actually have a boyfriend, right?

The netkama suspicion was a big deal because it was real, but denying something that isn’t real isn’t that difficult.

“UnderbedFairy.”

[Speak.]

Looking at that person’s rudeness made me want to vomit, but I suppressed it for now.

“You want me to explain not having a boyfriend?”

[Yes]

“I don’t have one.”

[?]

“I don’t have one.”

I didn’t add any special excuses.

What more could I say when I don’t have something?

[How can we believe you if you just say you don’t have one? You need to show us proof.]

What a load of bullsh*t.

I couldn’t hide my laughter.

Although I didn’t really feel the need to hide it either.

“Proof?”

“What are you talking about, UnderbedFairy.”

I smiled brightly for all to see.

“How can you prove that something doesn’t exist? It’s right to bring evidence that it does exist.”

That’s the truth.

How can you prove that something doesn’t exist?

I’m arguing that it doesn’t exist because there’s no evidence to think that it does exist.

Therefore, the side that has to present evidence is not the side that claims it doesn’t exist, but the side that claims it does.

It was obvious.

Of course, I don’t think logic will work on those kinds of people.

[??? Acting all innocent now that you’ve been caught ㅋㅋㅋ]

Yeah, that’s how they’ll come at me.

They’ll keep bickering with gritted teeth.

[Then how are you going to explain the waffles ㅋㅋㅋ]

“I said I went out today. I bought them on the way back.”

[When I asked earlier, you said it was just a waffle shop in the neighborhood?]

“Ah~ So you were the one who asked earlier, UnderbedFairy?”

Feelings of disgust welled up.

The only good thing was that it didn’t seem like there was another person like that.

“I just made something up because there are people who get too invested like you, asking if I have a boyfriend.”

“I don’t usually go to stores near my house.”

“Because there were people who tried to pinpoint where I lived based on what I ate before.”

“Like you.”

I pointed at the yeomisae on the other side of the internet line.

Actually, I go to stores near my house just fine, but there’s no way that person would know that.

I could picture the yeomisae trembling in anger after being openly called out.

[Wow, you’re treating people like trash]
[You know you’re crossing the line right now, right?]

The yeomisae rather got angry and threatened me.

“You’re the one who crossed the line, you idiot.”

How pathetic.

“What did I do wrong?”

[ㅋㅋㅋ Do you think it makes sense for a streamer to treat viewers like trash??]

“You’re acting like trash.”

[ㅋㅋㅋ What did I do ㅋㅋㅋ Unbelievable ㅋㅋㅋ]

“You’re working hard to find out where I live, aren’t you?”

[Me? ㅋㅋㅋ Asking where you bought the waffle is doxxing? ㅋㅋㅋ Unbelievable]

“Ah~ You can’t believe it?”

“Then does it make sense to ask me to explain having a boyfriend because I’m eating a waffle?”

I didn’t even feel the value to respect them anymore.

[This is how it turns out ㅋㅋㅋㅋ]
[Newbie got caught hook, line, and sinker with leading questions, huh?]
[Execute! Execute! Execute! Execute!]

There haven’t been people like that recently, but there were quite a few in the early days of the stream.

Usually, I just ban those yeomisae, but sometimes there are jerks who pick fights.

“Does it make sense?”

And I wasn’t the type to avoid a fight that was coming my way.

[Well, honestly, it was suspicious;;]

“Why? What was suspicious?”

[You’re eating a waffle that a man bought, wouldn’t that be suspicious?]

“I bought it from somewhere else, but let’s just say I’m eating a waffle that a man bought, okay?”

“They could just be family. Why are you automatically assuming it’s my boyfriend?”

[Then why didn’t you say that? Why didn’t you say that?]

“I’m telling you, the waffle I’m eating is from another waffle shop? I’m saying that assuming I was eating a waffle from Muren’s waffle shop.”

“Don’t you understand? Don’t you know what an assumption is?”

[ㅋㅋㅋ Geez ㅋㅋㅋ]

“Don’t just say geez, say something. You suspected me out of the blue and you’re already out of words?”

[ㅋㅋㅋ Unbelievable ㅋㅋㅋ]

[Then why didn’t you say you didn’t buy it from Muren’s waffle shop earlier? Why are you saying that now??]

“Everyone was going crazy demanding I prove I was a woman, you want me to say Actually, I didn’t buy it from the waffle shop in the neighborhood, I bought it from another waffle shop in that situation?”

“If I did that, they would say I was changing my words because I was caught being a netkama and it would have gotten even worse, wouldn’t it?”

I mixed appropriate facts with unconfirmable lies to rebut.

Because perfect logic isn’t important anyway.

[Okay, let’s say that’s the case]

The important thing is to lure them to take the bait.

[Where did you go today? Didn’t you go to meet your boyfriend?]

Like this

“Am I here to meet my boyfriend?”

“That’s strange.”

[?? What are you talking about again]

“I thought you were angry because I lied to the viewers, UnderbedFairy.”

“I guess whether or not I have a boyfriend is more important to you?”

[If you said you didn’t have a boyfriend but you did, isn’t that deception?]

“If I did?”

[Huh?]

“What would change if I did?”

In the end, it’s like this.

The deception that those kinds of jerks talk about isn’t about deceiving the viewers.

They just think it’s deception if you have a boyfriend.

“What would change for you if I had a boyfriend?”

“Did I not stream because I had a boyfriend?”

“Did I lie and say I was sick and take a break to hang out with my boyfriend?”

“I only take 4 days off a month at best, even if those 4 days were for meeting my boyfriend, does that mean I was neglecting the stream?”

“Even if I had a boyfriend, it didn’t affect the stream at all.”

“What’s the problem?”

I poured out questions like a machine gun.

But there was no response from UnderbedFairy in the chat.

“You just wanted to get with me in the end.”

“But you can’t do that if I have a boyfriend.”

“You should be my boyfriend, but you’re pissed that someone else has already taken that spot.”

“You should see the stream as a stream, do you think this is a place to hit on women?”

[No, that’s not it]

“Get out of here, you bastard.”

[Wow ㅋㅋㅋ You’re such a f*cking b*tch ㅋㅋㅋ]
【This message has been deleted.】

I kicked out the malicious viewer who didn’t see streamers as streamers.

But I couldn’t end it here.

The suspicion that that trash left behind.

I had to clearly address where I went today.

“Everyone, I’m sorry, the atmosphere has become a bit chaotic.”

[It’s ok, it’s ok]
[It’s been a while since the execution show ㅋㅋㅋ]
[Hiro, are you okay?]

Because it’s a stream that only regular viewers watch, everyone didn’t bat an eye at this kind of thing.

Which also means that the stream isn’t growing.

“Actually, I didn’t say anything because I was worried you guys would be worried.”

“I went to the hospital today, I didn’t go to meet a friend. Sorry!”

[?]
[What, you went to the hospital again?]
[What’s wrong again]

“My back hurt so I went to get it checked out. It seems like my back has been damaged a lot from always sitting in front of the computer.”

[Back owO…]
[What did you do all night long owO owO]

“Stop it! I’ll scold you for real!”

[What did they say at the hospital?]

“They just said it seems like it’s because I’m not stretching and sitting for too long.”

“Everyone, stretch from time to time!”

After that, it was the same stream as always.

“Honestly, I don’t know what eggplant tastes like. What do people eat it for?”

I communicated with viewers normally

“Thank you for the 10-month subscription!”

“HiroHiro~…”

“Haa… HaHiro☆”

[ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ]
[She’s embarrassed ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ]
[She became cute after turning on the cam ㅋㅋㅋ]

While being embarrassed by my still unfamiliar appearance

【Muren donated 50,000 won!!】
【I’m sorry today. I misunderstood and made things too difficult for Hiro.】

“Wow, 50,000 won donation!!”

“Hiro loves you so much Hi-hiro☆”

[Hiro, why aren’t you embarrassed when you receive 50,000 won?]
[Money-grubber]
[Can’t resist 50,000 won ㅋㅋㅋㅋ]

The misunderstanding (?) was resolved and today, which was like a storm, came to an end.

Today, I lost something big.

I had lived as a man all my life, but I became a woman overnight.

Now that I’ve turned on the cam, I won’t be able to hide behind the illustration anymore.

But my heart was lightened by the fact that I didn’t have to deceive viewers anymore.

How will I live from now on?

I acted as a woman, but I didn’t know women

I couldn’t know anything, and I didn’t know anything.

Still

I survived.

I can hope for tomorrow.

That’s enough.

Even if it’s a monotonous life where the same daily life is repeated without being flashy or great

I just want to survive.

Even if the price is to deny all of my previous life that I have lived so far

A streamer life that doesn’t suck

If I can protect this current life, I don’t care what happens to everything else.

I’ll give it all up.

As soon as I turned off the stream, I threw myself on the bed without even changing my clothes.

When I lay down on the bed, I felt the unfamiliar sensation between the bed and my breasts, but I want to rest now.

It won’t be too late to accept myself as a woman after I wake up.

I buried my face in the pillow and tried to sleep.

A cozy fatigue closed my eyes.

You worked really hard today.

Let’s sleep now. Goodbye.

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