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Chapter 30: Resurfacing doubts (1)

In the guest room that the Count had provided, Yukomis was in a state of utter turmoil.

“I don’t know what’s going on at all.”

It was a word with various meanings.

How did Silissa become like that?

Why is she telling such lies?

What on earth is wrong with this town?

“Should I just hang Silissa? Should I tell the Count that?”

Yukomis said, thinking about the ‘right to judge heretics’ of the Great Magician, which was only written in old documents.

Karat, who was next to her, showed an ambiguous reaction.

“Please bear with it.”

“When you think about it, isn’t she the culprit of all these problems?”

“That’s true, but… she doesn’t have any malicious intent, does she?”

“The fact that she doesn’t have malicious intent is the worst part!”

Bang.

“She’s a kid who commits such things without malice! It’s a sin for someone in that position to be that stupid!”

“Stupid, stupid… And… and me too!”

Yukomis’s face turned red.

It was because she was reminded that she had just had a quarrel with such a stupid elf on the same level.

No. It wasn’t that level. It was a much more serious disgrace.

‘Without realizing it, about my sister’s pu, purity…’

Because she had shouted.

It was something very far from the dignity she had to protect.

Again, I realized that the contagiousness of Silissa’s stupidity was terrifying.

‘But I’m right. My sister is a vi, vi…’

She was convinced.

Yukomis, who had once even told her to find a marriage partner, but her sister never showed any interest.

She even deliberately avoided such topics.

When she had free time, she always devoted herself to self-improvement.

Except for the few knights whom her sister had directly taught, she had almost no chance to contact men,

and above all, they were all people Yukomis knew.

‘Those guys? Played around with my sister?’

That possibility was out of the question.

‘…If not a man?’

That was also hard to imagine.

If she was a loose person who recklessly had affairs in the field tent, as she said, how could the people around her not know about it?

It was the Wyvern Knights, where noble and beautiful daughters of prestigious families were gathered.

If her sister was someone who would touch anyone depending on the atmosphere, there was no way that rumors would not spread within the Wyvern Knights.

‘Yeah, but the fact that my sister was more interested in ‘that side’ than ‘that side’…’

Yukomis, who had been pointing out the possibilities, stopped thinking there for a while.

When she gently put her hand on her chest, it felt like a strange sense of relief, warmth, was spreading out.

‘No. No. You can’t think like this.’

She always forced herself to stop thinking when her thoughts about her sister’s lover led to this point.

It was because she had an ominous feeling that if she thought more recklessly from there…

She didn’t know well, but it was because she had an ominous feeling that she would reach a painful conclusion.

Above all, now it was a meaningless thing, whatever it was.

After all, my sister is now…

‘Insensitive. Insensitive. It doesn’t make sense, does it? In front of the bereaved family, to tell a story that she had s*x with the deceased, is that something to say?’

Even that was a blatant lie.

When she thought that far, Yukomis’s anger rose again.

‘Signa was also angry.’

As soon as she heard Silissa’s crazy words, Signa forgot that she had to shut her mouth and shouted wildly.

And because she even started crying, Yukomis had to stop arguing with Silissa and take her to the room.

That part. That part was a little incomprehensible to Yukomis.

“Hey. Karat.”

“Yes. Master.”

“Did Signa… respect my sister a lot too?”

“What are you talking about?”

“You heard the conversation until you ran out, right?”

Karat frowned as if he was in trouble.

Seeing him react like that, Yukomis was ashamed of what she had said again.

“It’s not that I’m trying to make fun of you. I’m talking about the lie that Silissa spat out. You heard that far, right?”

“That’s right.”

“Signa got really angry when she heard that?”

“She got angry?”

“It’s not just that she got angry. It was a very dramatic reaction, even though she was seeing Silissa for the first time… She even mixed in swear words.”

“……Um… Was that why she started crying?”

“Yeah. By any chance, has she ever mentioned anything about my sister usually?”

Karat, who had been going down the memory lane for a moment, answered.

“Not really.”

“Is that so? I thought Signa would feel more comfortable with you than with me…”

“In my opinion, you are still giving Signa enough trust.”

“But… that’s right. You too, Yukomis, and Parnen and Aisha too, everyone in the mansion respected Thermis. Maybe she learned it in that atmosphere, didn’t she?”

“Is it that kind of problem?”

“If I may add another word…”

Karat cleared his throat as if it was difficult to speak.

“It may be a rude thing to say…”

“Just say it.”

“Those… some men, to the women who are their idols… eternal… that…”

Karat coughed a few more times.

That… that’s… um.”

“You’re starting to annoy me, Karat.”

“They also think it would be good if they kept their eternal virginity.”

“Karat!!!”

As soon as he was told to talk comfortably, Yukomis’s expression distorted sharply.

“I’m sorry! I know this is a rude remark. But men are such creatures. As you know, Signa was a man until recently, wasn’t she?”

“…Ugh!”

Yukomis’s mouth, who was about to say that they were all vulgar, was hurriedly closed.

My sister wouldn’t say such a thing. What am I going to do if I violate my sister’s will.

“Silissa also said it. It was because of that difference of opinion that she was kicked out of the cult.”

“You’re now… Signa also thinks that your sister kept her vi, virginity…”

Yukomis didn’t bother to say that word again.

“You believe that she kept that, and that’s why she’s angry?”

“I don’t know. I wasn’t there. But… she was really crying bitterly, wasn’t she.”

“Haa…”

Karat’s thoughts were not entirely absurd.

Yukomis recalled the memory of when she first met Signo.

The way he made subtle comments on her words that my sister thought this way, my sister wanted to do this.

He also said that he had read the history of the Solenas family, and he was originally smart and talented.

He was a boy who knew an unusual amount, so there was a possibility that he had known something about her sister superficially from before.

‘Is it really that much of a deal? Is my sister’s purity that big of a deal to him?’

She might be being sensitive over nothing.

I don’t know what I’m specifically suspecting, but I’m just suspicious. That wasn’t like Yukomis.

But… even if I try to rationalize it that way, the unease is not erased at all.

Why would Silissa’s words make Signa so angry? When she’s not even the person involved?

She had been patiently enduring without saying a word until now? There?

“It’s new, but… she’s in my sister’s body now, right?”

“That’s what happened.”

“……Then isn’t there a possibility that she has become over-immersed, or something like that, and has had such empathy, that she sees it as a slander against herself?”

Karat couldn’t hide his dumbfounded expression this time.

However, Yukomis didn’t care about such rudeness and seemed serious.

“I don’t know if it works that way…”

“But, it must be a strange feeling to be ‘borrowing’ someone else’s body. This is an unprecedented thing, isn’t it?”

“…Um…”

“Who can say for sure that it’s not? She’s the only one in this world in that position.”

For Karat, that was a possibility that he couldn’t deny recklessly either.

“She started to feel like she was my sister, or…”

Yukomis didn’t say anything for a while after those ominous words.

She was just staring at the burning brazier in the guest room for a while.

“Karat. If she stays like this…”

She finally opened her mouth again.

“If we can’t catch Manya… If enough time passes like this…”

Gulp.

Yukomis swallowed.

“If a year passes, and two years pass, and three years pass…”

“She’ll… become more and more like my sister, right? She’ll become a more familiar figure to you and me, right?”

Yukomis, who was saying those words, had a bitter expression.

“As time goes by, she’ll attract attention wherever she goes. Everyone will think she’s my sister. Even if she covers her face, someone will recognize her voice.”

“Yukomis.”

“On top of that, what if… I, sincerely educate her? Teach her swordsmanship, teach her knowledge, teach her everything that my sister learned, everything that I learned from my sister…”

“Yukomis. Still, that’s too far…”

“Won’t she become someone who acts like my sister, knows what my sister knew, and looks like my sister, with my sister’s voice, and with everything other than the human parts of that Signo…”

Karat tried to stop Yukomis’s words.

However, Yukomis, whose eyes had lost their brilliance in an instant, recited as if possessed.

“No, won’t the identity as Signa slowly die and disappear, and something that can be called my sister’s soul will grow somewhere in her head?”

Even now, the shadow of her sister was sometimes seen in her.

It was something that Karat felt, and she felt too.

But, but what if Yukomis tries her best to change her like her sister?

If she tries to cut out the parts that aren’t like her sister from the humanity of ‘Signo’, ‘Signa’?

“Of course, she won’t be able to go outside. Everyone will be surprised as if they saw a ghost. Everyone might think that my sister has risen from the grave.”

I’m scared.

I’m scared of that.

“I can’t even dream of going to the capital. She can’t go anywhere in Solenas, let alone the Imperial Palace, and I can’t even show that to my mother. But all her tastes and habits are my sister’s.”

But at the same time,

“She has to stay in the annex… only in that annex. If we can’t catch Manya, if Manya has already died somewhere, she has to live there for the rest of her life. She can’t come out even one step. Until the moment she dies, she can only see Parnen, Aisha, and me at best… My shadow becomes the entirety of her world…”

That was too…

“If I do that… I can go to the annex and see my sister.”

That terrible imagination was somehow too…

“If I only go to the annex, my sister will always greet me. There will always be my sister in the annex. There will always be my sister in the annex…”

“Yukomis!”

Karat finally shook Yukomis strongly.

“…Ah…”

“That’s why we’re here to stop that!”

Yukomis’s eyes, which had died, returned a little.

“We must solve this problem quickly and chase Manya! Before that… before that ‘nightmare’ becomes a reality!”

Karat emphasized that it was an ‘nightmare’ on purpose.

The skin on Yukomis’s hands, which were holding the staff while sitting, had turned white.

She must have been gripping it with terrible force.

“…S, sorry.”

Yukomis said blankly.

“It’s okay.”

Karat could only look at his master’s appearance bitterly.

She was pretending to be fine on the outside, but such things had been happening a little more frequently recently.

With all sorts of trivial things as an opportunity.

Every time he saw Yukomis’s eyes, which had lost their focus and seemed to be gazing into the abyss,

Karat had to shake and wake up his master.

‘I have to hurry.’

I had to hurry.

There was enough consensus between the two that they didn’t dare to say it out loud.

That was also the reason why they had pushed ahead with the trip to the north so quickly.

Really, if a month, two months, a year passes like this, and two years pass…

Wouldn’t Yukomis be unable to overcome such impulses, which she had spoken of, someday?

“…We can ask her why she reacted that way again later.”

Yukomis forcibly managed the situation.

“Solving the cult’s problems… I’ll have to do more investigation for now. I have to find out where the base is too.”

“Are you leaving Signa here?”

“It’s too dangerous to take her with us anyway. We can’t let her show her face by mistake, so.”

Yukomis brought her index finger to her lips.

“But it’s ambiguous to not take her with us.”

“Why?”

“I don’t know how far I can trust the people here.”

“Do you think there is someone from the cult infiltrated inside this castle?”

“Of course. I can’t erase that possibility.”

“But Signa hasn’t shown her face yet. And if you consider the possibility that someone who saw her would relate it to Lady Thermis’s early days… the possibility becomes even smaller.”

“The problem is that the cult is involved with the elves.”

That was the most troublesome part.

“If it’s someone who would sympathize with Silissa, we have to think that there are veterans of the Great Forest mixed in too. Needless to say, there is a higher possibility that such people will recognize Signa’s face. She can’t control her emotions like this now, so how will it be in the future?”

“That’s right. It’s a matter of possibility. It’s because of that possibility that I can’t make a hasty decision…”

It felt like my hands and feet were tied.

None of the options were perfect.

‘If I still had strength left. If I was strong enough to not have to worry about this troublesome thing…’

Yukomis gritted her teeth, but it was useless.

Yukomis started to count the people she could absolutely trust here.

Me. This is obvious.

Karat. This is also obvious.

The Count? She’s a good person, a capable person, and maybe she’s faithful, but… I can’t say she’s 100% certain.

The other people under her were completely out of the question.

‘Silissa. I can trust Silissa.’

Apart from her subpar personality, I couldn’t even dream of her betraying me.

She was a comrade who was with my sister. She was someone my sister trusted.

But to pardon her and ask her to protect Signa…?

‘Silissa will definitely recognize whose face the current Signa is.’

They have already become such a twisted relationship as soon as they met.

Is it okay to decide this so easily? Won’t Signa get hurt more?

Silissa was in such a strange state that she had even fabricated the ‘non-existent one night’ with my sister.

Is she much more mentally unstable than I thought?

Is it okay to let her meet the current Signa?

How should I explain it?

“…What are you going to do?”

Karat asked Yukomis again, who was anxious.

“I’ve decided.”

The soldier guarding the prison was very happy, unlike before.

It was because the elf inside the prison had finally stopped shouting.

Since the Great Magician’s party had visited, she had become unbelievably quiet.

She was still looking at the air, but only sporadic

“Hmm…”

“Heeeuuuuum…”

“Is that so…”

Low voices like that were coming out of her mouth.

‘I don’t know what kind of magic the Grandmaster used, but may there be blessings on her!’

Anyway, if she was just being quiet, the work he was in charge of was very comfortable.

Thanks to the private brazier for the noble prisoner inside the prison cell,

the very warm heat was conveyed to where he was as it was, even though it was a dungeon.

In contrast to the soldier outside the bars, Silissa inside the iron bars had a very complicated feeling.

‘It was a familiar voice.’

The unidentified girl who was vehemently condemning herself.

With great conviction, she was claiming that her words were false.

What did she know? What was the relationship between that girl and Yukomis, what was the relationship between her and Thermis, and what was the relationship between her and me that she would unleash such great anger?

‘Different, different but… it’s a familiar voice.’

It was a much younger, more immature voice, but…

Still, she could tell. It was her lord’s voice.

‘She didn’t speak like my lord.’

The girl’s voice didn’t feel the softness, kindness, or reassuring authority that was buried in Thermis’s voice.

‘My lord has never cursed me like that.’

That voice was just acting up. Like a child.

Like a child?

Yeah. Like a child.

‘As if she became a child.’

It was an absurd thought.

There was no way that could logically be possible.

Still, Silissa trusted her intuition, which was like foresight.

She always trusted her intuition more if her thoughts and intuition collided.

Thinking is something I can let Thermis and Yukomis do.

That was something they were good at.

I… see through the fog that thoughts can’t reach.

Silissa finally made up her mind.

“Hey. You.”

“Are you talking to me?”

The soldier was embarrassed by her words, which had never been addressed to him before.

“I have something to say to the Count. Take me to meet her.”

At that moment, Signa, seemingly upset, was pounding the pillow.

Signa had just been ‘put’ in this guest room after being dragged out by Yukomis, who was almost as embarrassed as she was.

She said that she would definitely punish her later.

‘What’s the punishment? Why should I be punished!’

The traces of tears that had flowed down with sadness were still on her cheeks.

‘For someone who is a duchess, for someone who is a duchess, she has no dignity!’

‘It’s not just me who’s immature. It’s not like she did anything right, so why is she saying she’s going to punish me!’

At the same time, there was enough awareness that she should have endured it in that place.

After becoming a child, she had already experienced several times that she would act recklessly, impulsively, and without a plan ‘if she was careless even for a little bit’.

On top of that, it seemed to be getting much worse after becoming a girl.

Signa became dizzy just thinking about what Yukomis or Silissa would ask her later.

Is there a plausible excuse?

But…

Even so, this was a bit too much. It was, after all, a matter that had exceeded the limits of her patience.

‘Why do I have to hear from my younger sister that ‘my sister is a virgin’!’

Was that true?

It was true.

…Maybe? Because I don’t have the memories from before I possessed the body.

But the moment I heard that, my face turned red and I couldn’t hold back.

Signa absolutely did not cause accidents with Thermis’s body.

‘No, after all, Silissa is the worst! What kind of nonsense is she claiming?’

It was true that she had told her a few stories that came to mind late at night, but there was absolutely nothing more than that.

From the start, to look at the members who had gathered under her to save the world with those eyes.

And to do such a thing.

To do such a thing…

‘It’s sexual harassment by abuse of power.’

Signa spoke the words that were bland but had that much weight.

There was no way that such specific charges existed in this world, but

The basic moral concepts that make up the law were not different anyway.

Anyway, that was a very, very cowardly and bad thing.

‘I didn’t do that…’

What could be more embarrassing than interpreting human affection as something more?

‘I’m definitely not a fool who mistakes the smile of a part-timer for love.’

Then why did Silissa say that?

The only possibility she could think of was that

She was probably doing some kind of guru-like game in the meantime,

And she wanted to consolidate her authority by putting forward her only experience.

‘So the only thing she could think of was… that… that…’

Signa, who was blushing, buried her head again.

‘Aaaaaaaak! Doesn’t that mean she might have said that nonsense in front of hundreds of people!’

Signa felt like she was going crazy just thinking about Silissa’s loud voice that was spreading that fabricated ‘s*x story’ in front of the crowd.

Besides, why did the religion she chose have to worship me?

‘What’s the incarnation of Sonnet? Isn’t she stupid?’

Before I knew it, I had ended up promoting the blasphemy of the elves.

Shouldn’t she have more confidence in her own achievements, rather than just telling my story there?

I don’t know. In my past life, they were clearly all trustworthy people,

But after I came back, there was not a single reunion that took place in a normal form.

The younger sister who virtually adopted herself.

A maze hide-and-seek with the princess on a moonlit night.

A fabricated s*x story shared with an elf…

Even the words that make up the incident were all crazy.

‘Is this… is this all some kind of illusion experienced by the mind of a child? Maybe I have a mental illness or something…’

Knock knock.

While she was burying her head in the pillow and feeling frustrated, someone knocked from outside.

“…Are you here?”

Signa did not answer rashly this time.

She was remembering the request that Yukomis had made even in the midst of this.

She had already broken it once in the dungeon, but… she couldn’t make the same mistake again.

Someone who knocked on the door continued speaking, not caring about the silence.

“Ah. I know you’re here because of your presence. This is Isht Galar. I’m the son of Count Odresa…”

Come to think of it, the voice that guided the group when they arrived at the castle.

It was the same cheerful voice.

“Lady Yukomis is looking for you.”

‘…Is it already time to go out again.’

Yeah. The sooner I get hit, the better.

While thinking that, Signa, who had gotten up from the bed, was about to grab the doorknob,

‘…Wait a minute?’

Suddenly,

Very suddenly, an idea stopped her.

There was some idea that came to her as soon as her hand touched the doorknob.

As soon as that thought came to her, she didn’t move at all.

“…Mr. Signo? Are you there? Lady Yukomis is…”


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2 months ago

If You Notice any translation issues or inconsistency in names, genders, or POV etc? Let us know here in the comments or on our Discord server, and we’ll fix it in current and future chapters. Thanks for helping us to improve! 🙂

Novelenjoyer
Novelenjoyer
1 month ago

Mc acting her age lol

Thanks for the chapter !

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1 month ago

Uhmm what with the tension at the end there, also what part of the world is this because I’m pretty sure the day from it releases is Thursday but in my side of the world it Sunday

Ryuukira Sekai
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1 month ago

Because Yukomis never introduce Signo/Signa to anyone in the Count estate, and suddenly someone calling Signo there would ring an alarm in her head