Chapter 42 : I want to get pregnant

Several days later. On a day during the peaceful and happy times.

After seeing Caspar off for work outside, I was looking after the house.

“…Lilith. Is the cleaning all done?”

‘Having a maid certainly makes things physically easier. Leaves a lot of personal time too.’

“Yes. Madam.”

She bowed and prepared to return to her own home.
Lilith seemed to have her own life too, but I didn’t interfere unnecessarily.

‘Hmm. Still, should I ask? Since I’m bored.’

“Ah. Are you doing anything these days? Not lacking vitality since coming to Earth?”

‘Knowing about succubus ecology would likely be helpful when talking with Enhen later. Seeing as she hasn’t specifically mentioned anything to me, it seems she’s not particularly uncomfortable.’

“Ehehe, thanks to you, Madam, I’m living a very affluent life. I’m always grateful.”

‘…What did I do?’

As if reading my question, Lilith nodded slightly and continued.

“Earth, really, money can solve everything! I supplemented my vitality with the salary you gave me. I gathered so much vitality, I think my rank even increased a bit.”

“Uh… Sperm banks, or something like that?”

Lilith shook her head.

“That’s too inefficient. Prostitution isn’t really my taste either, and it’s illegal. Instead… I found a more efficient method.”

Saying so, she held up her phone and showed me an app.
A familiar streaming site appeared.

“They say this is trendy these days. Though I haven’t TS-ed, I am a Returnee, so this is somewhat the national rule…”
(TL Note: “TS” likely refers to ‘Transsexual’ or gender change, referencing a trend or trope related to Returnees or streamers in this context. “National rule” (국룰 – gukrul) is internet slang for something widely accepted or standard within a community.)

Looking closely, I saw a 2D illustration resembling Lilith.
I’d heard of this before, what was it called again?

“…Can you really supplement vitality with this? And, why not use your real appearance?”

“Well, obviously. …It’s embarrassing.”

Seeing the succubus blush and squirm left me speechless.

‘This is a succubus?’

“Ah. I do have a plan. If I reveal my true form, I’ll inevitably become a female camgirl… After establishing myself as a skilled streamer as a VTuber, I’ll reveal my true form once I’m adapted.”
(TL Note: “Camgirl” refers to women who stream content, often sexual, online. “VTuber” refers to Virtual YouTuber, online entertainers using virtual avatars.)

‘Ah. VTuber, that was the term. Honestly, I think that plan doesn’t make sense.’

‘Still… It seems okay, I guess.’

‘…Would Enhen like it?’

‘Enhen, who always attracted people’s attention and enjoyed it, would probably like it.’

‘But I can’t let disgusting men lust after my sister’s body. Still, maybe this indirect method is somewhat acceptable.’

“Ah. Q-Queen? Um… I, I don’t really know. First, I don’t have the memories. And honestly, recommending this kind of work to the Queen. Is a bit… well.”

‘Hmm.’

‘Did I only think of my sister from long ago? Right, the current Enhen is an Archduke of Hell. She must have changed a lot from the innocent girl.’

‘My mouth feels dry.’

‘Is it okay for me to be this happy? That thought arose.’

‘Leaving my sister stuck in hell.’

Even after Lilith left, I pondered for a long time, but the conclusion was singular.

‘First. Let’s decide after meeting her later.’

The day to meet Enhen wasn’t objectively far off.
About a month until the 666th Gate appeared.
And about three months until the war with Hell ended.

So, the reunion with Enhen itself was about a month away.

I thought this while waiting for Caspar, who went out to handle a Gate.

‘I’m so bored these days, I could die.’

‘He keeps insisting on going out alone, claiming it’s martial arts training. Was the shock from Seolhyang that significant?’

‘It would probably be fine if I helped him, but Caspar rarely shows me his training.’

“…”

‘It’s probably not for me. Just Caspar’s own satisfaction.’

‘Well, naturally. Caspar wasn’t the type to neglect me like this usually.’

I sat demurely in the living room, staring intently at the door.
Looking just like a puppy waiting for its owner, a slight smile emerged.

‘Actually, it wasn’t much different.’

‘…I want to get pregnant.’

‘I want to leave proof of our love. I want to hold a child resembling both me and Caspar and take pictures.’

‘I want to caress my swollen belly with a happy smile.’

I bit my lip and sighed inwardly.
It was a distant prospect for now.

‘Ugh… I thought I endured a lot.’

‘Because my body is comfortable, other thoughts arise.’

‘Right. At times like this… Yes. Shouldn’t I release it a little? Perhaps.’

Briefly relaxing from my upright posture, I took guilty steps towards the laundry pile and picked up Caspar’s clothes.

‘…It’s not time for him to come back yet. Just a little. Just a little.’

‘This is Caspar’s fault.’

‘A whole 6 hours. We were apart for 6 hours. And yesterday too, and the day before.’

Tap. Tap.

I undid just two buttons on my top and slightly lifted my short skirt.
My white stockings looked slightly damp with sweat.

Sniff sniff.

“Ah…”

‘Haaah, nice.’

A faint moan escaped thinly from my lips.
My own aroused voice entered my ears again.
Seeing my overly excited state excited me further.

My hand moved busily.
Compared to Caspar’s large, sturdy one (referring to his hand), it was frail, but it couldn’t be helped.
Originally, women are far lacking compared to men in every aspect.

‘Just. It’s just a scent.’

‘I don’t know why it feels so good. Like Pavlov’s dog, like a beast drooling at the ring of a bell…’

‘Just sensing my husband’s traces immediately makes me… strange.’

Ugh.

‘This won’t do. What if my brain gets damaged like this? I need to pass down a good brain to my child.’

‘What if the children are born stupid like me now? Agathe. Stop. Let’s stop.’

‘…Since it’s inherited genetically anyway, as long as the eggs are fine, doesn’t it matter what happens to me now?’

The devil inside my heart whispered such things.

Oh.

‘Is that so?’

‘Actually, it seemed I had already become stupid.’

‘No, that’s not right.’

‘Child-rearing is so important. If I become an idiot who only knows Caspar, I might be an obedient woman, but not a good mother.’

‘Right. So, before I become even stranger, I should quickly become a mother and raise a baby.’

‘Yes. That’s right. My desire to get pregnant wasn’t strange at all. It was just my body sending a warning.’

‘To quickly fulfill the biological duty and leave descendants before becoming truly beyond help.’

Suddenly, I found myself having entered Caspar’s closet, crouching down, and burying myself in his pile of clothes.
Though slightly horrified at myself, feeling the fabric all over my body and smelling Caspar’s scent felt incredibly pleasing, so it was okay.

I murmured with a happy smile.

“Alright. Mmmhmm. Yes. This time, when Caspar returns this time, I’ll definitely say let’s have a baby.”

‘I want to see the baby quickly. I want to breastfeed too, and hear baby talk.’

‘Besides that, there were so many things to do. Weren’t they things I had thought about tens of thousands of times?’

Hehe.

‘Why did I use contraception until now? I don’t understand. No matter how good the honeymoon phase is, even getting pregnant now, I’m already past the prime childbearing age.’

-Click.

Just then. The sound of the door opening was heard.
Caspar had arrived.

“…Agathe?”

At his questioning voice, electricity flowed down my spine as if doused with cold water.

Thump!

“Hyeet!”

Having fallen out of the wardrobe, I lay sprawled, my body trembling uncontrollably, writhing in shame.

Ah. Ah…

‘I’m crazy. Really.’

“Ah. Ugh… S-Sorry.”

With a deeply flushed face, I apologized to my dear husband.

‘It was a dizzying sensation. What on earth did I just do?’

‘It was the timing to sit quietly, ask my dear husband if he returned safely, and offer a gentle smile. But I succumbed to lust and made a complete fool of myself.’

“Ugh. The clothes are all messed up. Sorry. Caspar.”

I rambled incoherently and bowed my head.
Caspar chuckled softly and patted my head.

“Ahaha. This, um. Cute. It’s okay, it’s okay. Clothes can just be washed. Calm down, Agathe. Hmm. May I ask why you were doing that?”

“…Ah. Mmm. Well…”

‘Why. Was I doing that?’

‘Ah. Right. There’s only one answer.’

I inadvertently blurted out the thought that had been constantly circling in my head.

“Because I want to get pregnant.”

‘I said. It.’

My dazed brain throbbed somehow.
It felt like sparks were popping from short-circuited wires.

‘Why didn’t I say it before?’

“…Just endure a little longer. Agathe. After confirming Enhen is okay. Let’s discuss plans for children after that.”

Caspar said so with a troubled expression.
But, somehow, Caspar’s expression also looked like someone suppressing laughter.

I mulled over his words, interpreting them step by step.
A clear conclusion struck my mind awake.

‘It felt like being hit with a hammer.’

‘Ah. Right. We’re still preparing for war.’

‘…Come to think of it. There was that.’

“Agathe. Did you miss me that much? Only a few hours passed, yet you’re already thinking about children. Commendable.”

It was Caspar, playfully teasing me.

I pouted and lightly bumped my head against his leg.
Caspar was standing, and since my legs had given out, leaving me sitting on the floor, it couldn’t be helped.

“Eek. You’re bad. You were bad. Really. Last night too. Teasing me relentlessly… Didn’t even do it properly. Hmph. Thanks to you, I’ve become strange.”

Polite speech came out naturally.
It couldn’t be helped.

‘Well, this feels much more natural for me too, and besides, it’s the way of speaking that makes Caspar… easily aroused.’

‘Tonight, I have to take the lead. After all, I’m the older one. If I lead like before, Caspar will definitely tease me less.’

I resolved firmly.