Chapter 68: This Is My Motivation

MCN for VTubers, huh.

After sending Jina and Sua away, I was left alone in the house, lost in thought.

Like debuting idols and actors, a broadcaster debuts as a virtual streamer.

That means that the process of how I was able to grow by being selected by Racoon during my rookie days is nurtured on a company-wide scale.

The internet broadcasting industry is fierce.

It’s open to anyone, but the path to success is not given to everyone.

That’s why I spent about 3 years of broadcasting as a rookie.

Even if you have talent and effort, it’s hard to rise if you don’t catch people’s eyes, that’s the trend of internet broadcasting these days.

That’s why rookies desperately try to participate in joint events of large companies.

I started to gain popularity that way too.

If that can be done at the company level, and with Jina’s name, it will naturally build connections with existing broadcasters, and the inflow will be unimaginable.

It’s a golden opportunity for new or experienced broadcasters.

‘Besides, it seems like virtual broadcasting is almost like a character business….’

Viewers don’t feel much fun and quickly fall away from broadcasts where the speaker is awkward or lacks confidence.

But I think virtual can sublimate that into the character’s personality.

Just like how a character in an animation looks cute even if they have an annoying and frustrating personality when they come out into reality.

The charm of this virtual is that it makes people think of it as a character concept.

That was proof that the number of people watching the broadcast to see the avatar, not the content of the broadcast, increased.

‘What Jina is doing will surely succeed.’

She’s a person with a great eye for the future. Besides, Sua affirmed Jina’s work.

I couldn’t join the conversation between the two, so I just watched the conversation between the two.

Stories about the future.

Stories about the world to come.

The two were always looking far away and moving.

‘But I’ve always been led around by Sua.’

YouTube, content, and virtual were all done because Sua suggested it.

Sua’s predictions always came true, so I followed them without doubt, and now I’ve come this far.

Of course, I’m just out of the beginner stage.

Now I’ve made a name for myself in the internet broadcasting industry.

I’ve grown so rapidly in just a few months that it’s hard to believe, and I’ve made a name for myself in the top ranks of broadcasters.

But I didn’t do anything.

Racoon did everything.

It’s often said in the community as a joke.

-Osorin is Racoon’s attachment doll 

Like a doll, it moves as Racoon moves.

It’s a painfully accurate assessment.

So I made up my mind.

Just as the two always walk ahead on their own, I decided to take a step on my own.

‘First, let’s think about content that only I can do.’

Things like singing and games can be done even if you’re not a VTuber.

Then what is the content that no one else has done while utilizing being a VTuber?

I had to think a little carefully.

[Osorin]: I’m going independent for the time being

[Osorin]: Just you wait!

“…Huh?”

I suddenly received such a message.

Song Jakga, who was sitting next to me, tilted her head as if I had made a strange expression after reading the incomprehensible content.

“Is something wrong?”

“No, it’s just that a friend sent me something strange.”

Independent.

Did she start living alone and want to be alone for a while?

Well, it’s probably related to broadcasting anyway, so I’ll find out later.

When Song saw the word friend coming out of my mouth, she somehow made a happy expression and stroked my head.

“Sua is working hard. You’re helping with YouTube editing and Director Kang Minseok’s movie, right? And you came to help PD Lee with filming today.”

“I like this better than going to school.”

Compared to before, I was able to spend school very smoothly.

Heo Jintae always pestered me, and now Son Hyeji keeps talking to me.

As a result, I felt that the way other children looked at me had softened a little.

There were still glances from time to time, but it wasn’t as hot as having the back of my head pierced.

But even so, school is not fun.

The classes themselves are just boring.

“When I was your age, I thought it was very important to get a perfect attendance award. Times have changed~”

“Song, you’re not that old, are you?”

“I’m glad you think I’m young. But I’m in my mid-30s now…. At this age, my body aches, and people around me nag me about when I’m going to get married….”

“Mid-30s is young. My uncle is an old bachelor over 40.”

“It feels a little strange to hear that from a 13-year-old.”

Song laughed awkwardly, haha.

“As you said, times have changed. These days, there are many people who live alone without getting married, or there are many people who get married in middle age.”

“…I wish my mom would hear that too.”

She muttered that and made an expression as if she was lost in thought.

As we were sitting on a bench next to the vending machine and talking about that, Lee Seongbeom approached from afar.

Lee, who is busy with various schedules recently, is almost living at the broadcasting station.

I feel that he is really energetic, filming vlog videos whenever he has time.

Song saw Lee and erased the slightly gloomy expression and pulled out a latte coffee from the vending machine and handed it to him.

“Oh, thank you. I was just craving something sweet.”

“I thought so. Why don’t you take it easy? Even if it’s a joint production, you’re just putting your name on it.”

“But it’s a program with my name on it, so I have to work hard. The same goes for Song?”

“Am I the same as you….”

Lee drank the hot latte at once and smiled brightly, patting her back.

“Anyway, thank you for playing with Sua on a busy day like today. It must have been your day off.”

“I like Sua too. Anyway, if I stay home, I just get nagged.”

“The only people who know our situation are Jintae and Song. Thanks to that, I feel comfortable when the three of us are together.”

After all, he introduced us to others as uncle and niece.

It’s inevitable that I feel a brake somewhere when I try to say something.

I can now naturally call Lee ‘uncle’ to others.

“It’s okay. If you’re so grateful, don’t forget things every time you go on a business trip.”

“But Song covers everything~”

“Don’t even mention it….”

He often forgets things.

Last time, he went on an overseas site visit and forgot his passport.

Whenever that happens, Song seems to take care of everything.

“Uncle, are you done with today’s work?”

It’s already late.

The sky is completely black.

Most office workers were already preparing for bed at home.

But Lee shook his head and let out a small sigh.

“I still have post-production work left. I think I’ll be late going back. Why don’t you go back first?”

“Then I’ll take her with me.”

“Then, can you do that?”

“I’ll take her to dinner on the way. I ate snacks earlier, but I think I should feed her rice.”

“Okay, thank you.”

Lee readily handed her the car keys and card, saying he was sorry.

So we left the broadcasting station late at night.

We entered a chicken restaurant.

We each grabbed a piece of crispy fried chicken and ate it, filling our hunger that we had filled with snacks.

Song emptied her glass of cola as if drinking beer and put down the glass with a ‘Kyaa!’.

And she licked her lips as if she was sorry that she couldn’t drink alcohol because she was driving, and picked up another piece of chicken and put it in her mouth.

I looked at her and asked curiously.

“Do you have any worries?”

“Huh?”

“No, you looked like you had something on your mind since you were at the broadcasting station.”

“D, did it show that much…?”

She smiled awkwardly and brought her hand to her face.

She occasionally made an uneasy expression, which was not simply fatigue from hard work.

“Well… I guess so….”

“The best way to solve a problem is to talk to someone. Even if it’s not solved, it will be easier.”

“That… that’s true.”

She hesitated, but at my continued urging, she finally opened her mouth.

“It’s about a colleague of mine.”

It’s about you.

“When we reach our age, people around us talk about marriage. It was the same for that colleague. Her parents keep nagging her to get married.”

“Yes, and then?”

“But she said she already had someone she liked. But that person was in a slightly special situation….”

“A special situation?”

“The other person has a child.”

“Oh my.”

So Song likes a married man.

Of course, as times have changed, divorce has become more common, and marriage between divorced people has also become natural.

But having a child is a burden.

It’s not someone else’s child.

Song, you’re going down a really difficult path….

“But she said she didn’t mind.”

“She didn’t mind?”

“Yeah, she already knew that. But what she’s worried about is whether the other person’s child will accept her.”

I don’t know what the situation is, but the child may resent the father.

“So, if Sua was a child in that situation, how would you feel?”

“Me….”

The best way is to ask the child about the child’s feelings.

That’s why Song asked me after much thought.

I thought seriously about her question.

She had helped me a lot, so I wanted to help her too.

“…As you know, I’m from an orphanage. I don’t know much about parents. But if I were to say what I think…. I think I’d be happy.”

“Happy?”

“Yes, I don’t know why they separated from their wife, but they know that the other person has a child and still want to meet the father, overcoming that burden.

If someone who can give that kind of love appears to a father who is raising himself alone, I think I would be happy.”

I don’t know the atmosphere of a family.

I can only guess based on what I’ve seen in dramas or movies.

So my image of a family might be an absurd fantasy.

But Song listened to my opinion seriously and nodded.

“…Yeah, thank you. I’ll definitely tell that to my colleague.”

“Tell her to cheer up too.”

I don’t know what it feels like to love someone.

But being so nervous and anxious about it must take a lot of courage.

I really wanted to cheer for Song’s courage.

Crisp-

I took a bite of the slightly cooled chicken and saw Song’s determined expression.