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Join the ServerShi Yubai’s peach blossom eyes widened in an instant.
His mind went completely blank.
For a moment, he didn’t even know where he was.
It felt as if fireworks had exploded inside his head.
The jelly-soft touch against his lips made it impossible to tell whether he was dreaming or awake.
Xu Sui’an’s long eyelashes fluttered gently.
Her heart pounded wildly.
‘Sweet…’
‘My Xiaobai really is soft and sweet.’
‘Just like my favorite osmanthus cake.’
It took Shi Yubai quite a while before his wandering mind finally returned.
“Y-You…”
Before he could finish, his lips were sealed once more.
If he hadn’t been holding the little “koala” clinging to him, he might not have been able to stay on his feet.
Xu Sui’an’s thoughts raced.
‘How can I talk my way out of this… and win Xiaobai back?’
Shi Yubai’s heartbeat spiraled completely out of control.
His ears flushed as red as pomegranate seeds.
His first kiss…
Was gone.
After getting rejected…
His first kiss had been stolen by Xu Sui’an.
His voice wavered, unable to tell whether he was happy or angry.
“Xu Sui’an…
Get down.
Let’s talk properly.”
This time, Xu Sui’an behaved obediently.
Reluctantly, she slid down from her “tree.”
Even then, she refused to let go of Shi Yubai’s arm.
“Promise me.”
“Until I’ve figured everything out, you’re not allowed to leave.”
“And what if I don’t?”
Shi Yubai deliberately avoided looking at her.
He was afraid that if he met her eyes…
He’d never be able to let go.
She was the little girl he’d treasured above all else.
The girl he’d protected since childhood.
Letting go…
Was simply too difficult.
From innocent youth to first love…
After growing up together as childhood sweethearts, he feared that one more glance at her would shatter the resolve he’d struggled so hard to build.
Xu Sui’an grabbed his collar and forced him to meet her gaze.
“You won’t agree?”
Panic welled up inside her.
She was terrified she’d never get him back.
Standing on tiptoe, she bit his lip again.
Her eyes clearly told him—
“If you won’t agree, I’ll keep biting until you do.”
Shi Yubai frowned.
The sting on his lips reminded him this wasn’t a dream.
His long, slender fingers lightly tapped the back of Xu Sui’an’s hand once.
It was their secret signal.
Whenever words failed them…
One tap meant yes.
Two taps meant no.
Though from childhood until now…
He had never once tapped twice.
Xu Sui’an immediately released him.
Seeing the tiny cut at the corner of his mouth, she felt a pang of guilt.
She gently blew on it.
“Does it hurt?”
The sadness in Shi Yubai’s heart was momentarily replaced by the sting on his lips and the panic inside him.
“I wonder who bit me.”
Xu Sui’an looked away guiltily.
“I…
If I said I didn’t mean to…
Would you believe me?”
Shi Yubai unconsciously licked the corner of his lips.
Her mark still lingered there.
It felt as though that mark had been branded directly onto his heart.
Let her go?
Impossible.
She had stolen his first kiss.
She had stamped her mark on him without permission.
Xu Sui’an…
You have to take responsibility.
His heart screamed those words.
Xu Sui’an secretly glanced at him, trying to figure out whether he was angry.
How was she supposed to explain this?
After thinking it over countless times…
She still couldn’t come up with a perfect excuse.
Fine.
If she had no reason, she’d argue anyway.
No matter what…
She wasn’t letting go of his hand.
“Um…
Are you…
still angry?”
“I’m…
not angry.”
Shi Yubai sat down across from her.
The sadness in his voice was impossible to hide.
“You just don’t like me.
That’s not your fault.
I’ll learn to let go.
“You don’t like me interfering in your life.
I’ll give you the freedom you want.”
Xu Sui’an’s chest tightened.
She thought about the ending in the novel.
The lifetime of regret.
The greatest sorrow wasn’t never having known happiness.
It was having happiness within arm’s reach…
Only to lose it because of the plot.
She had loved him without realizing it.
And missed him forever.
That regret could never be erased.
Large tears rolled down her cheeks one after another.
Like the misty rain of Jiangnan.
Watching her cry, Shi Yubai’s heart ached uncontrollably.
Without realizing it, his voice softened.
He silently handed her a clean handkerchief.
“I’m the one who got rejected.
I didn’t even cry.
So why are you crying?”
Xu Sui’an felt unbearably wronged.
She threw herself into his arms and burst into heart-wrenching sobs.
Her mind was filled with images of losing Shi Yubai.
Watching helplessly as he walked farther and farther away.
His lips.
His embrace.
His tenderness.
Everything that belonged to him…
Would belong to Ruan Qingqing instead.
In the original story…
Shi Yubai loved with unwavering devotion.
The moment he became Ruan Qingqing’s boyfriend…
Xu Sui’an lost every chance to win him back.
One year later…
Shi Yubai was drugged.
By sheer coincidence, Ruan Qingqing saved him.
The two became lovers.
Xu Sui’an never had another opportunity.
In the end…
She died consumed by depression.
Shi Yubai couldn’t understand it.
He was the one who’d been rejected.
He was the one who should be crying.
Then why…
Was Xu Sui’an crying as though her entire world had fallen apart?
As if…
She were the one who’d been abandoned.
“Suisui…
Did someone bully you?”
He had to admit it.
Even after being rejected…
He still couldn’t bear to see her cry so miserably.
Xu Sui’an buried herself in his arms.
Her tears soaked through his white shirt.
“What can I do…
to make you stop crying?”
Shi Yubai gently wiped away the tears at the corners of her eyes.
The handkerchief quickly became damp.
Sniffling pitifully, Xu Sui’an looked utterly helpless.
“Xiaobai…
I’m missing…”
“What are you missing?
I’ll help you.”
The affection in Shi Yubai’s eyes overflowed without restraint.
Just like countless times before…
He patiently coaxed her.
‘Forget it.’
‘I’ll indulge her one last time.’
‘Just this once.’
Xu Sui’an’s eyes were swollen red from crying.
She looked like a lost little rabbit.
“Xiaobai…
If there’s something I need…
Will you help me?”
“Yes.”
Shi Yubai nodded.
Unable to resist, he gently pinched her nose.
“Pinky promise.”
Xu Sui’an held out her little finger and looked at him expectantly.
“Okay.”
The moment he saw that jade-like little finger…
Memories of their childhood came rushing back.
A faint smile curved Shi Yubai’s lips.
He affectionately ruffled her hair.
Xu Sui’an almost started crying again.
‘Damn this villainess role.’
‘Damn this stupid plot.’
‘It almost made me lose someone as wonderful as Shi Yubai.’
She gently shook their hooked pinkies together.
Her eyes curved into a smile.
“Xiaobai…
I’m missing a boyfriend.
Will you help me chase him?”
The smile on Shi Yubai’s face froze.
His heart plunged straight into a vat of vinegar soaked with bitter herbs.
Sour.
And bitter.
Xu Sui’an…
You hugged me.
You kissed me.
And now you’re asking me to help you pursue another man?
Who is it?
Could it be…
Ruan Qingyang?
You want me to help you chase another guy?
Dream on!
That damned Ruan Qingyang!
When did he secretly corrupt my Suisui?
His fists were already clenched.
“I’ll help.”
Shi Yubai ground out the words through gritted teeth.
“Is the person you like…
Ruan Qingyang?”
Xu Sui’an blinked in confusion.
Her delicate brows knitted together.
“I don’t like Ruan Qingyang.”
“He’s not as handsome as you.”
One sentence.
That was all it took.
Shi Yubai slowly unclenched his fists.
His heart escaped the sea of bitterness.
“Then…
Who do you like?”
Whoever he is…
Let’s see if I don’t punch his teeth out.
Shi Yubai quickly began listing every possible rival in his mind.
Xu Sui’an’s voice was hoarse from crying.
She reached out and held his hand.
“You.”
For once…
Shi Yubai’s brilliant brain stopped working.
His heart skipped a violent beat.
‘This has to be a dream.’
‘An hour ago she rejected me.’
‘How could she possibly like me?’
“Shi Yubai.
You didn’t hear wrong.
The person I like…
is you.”
Shi Yubai instinctively caught Xu Sui’an as she jumped into his arms again.
Their movements were perfectly practiced.
“Xu Sui’an.
This joke isn’t funny.
Do you want me to remind you…
that you rejected me just a little while ago?”
Xu Sui’an lifted a finger and gently pressed it against his lips.
“I rejected you.
That’s true.
“But I like you.
That’s true too.
“We grew up together.
We’ve been childhood sweethearts since we were little.
“When we played house as children…
I was always your one and only bride.
“You’ve confessed to me three times.
“Do you know why I rejected you every single time?”
Shi Yubai’s heart pounded violently.
His voice grew hoarse.
“If you liked me…
Then why reject me?
“Didn’t you know it would hurt?
“Every time you turned me down…
My heart…
hurt so much.”
Xu Sui’an’s eyes darted around.
She suddenly remembered the foxtail grass ring in her pocket.
Her voice turned soft and sweet, still carrying a trace of tears.
She poked him lightly in the chest.
“You blockhead Bai…
Isn’t this all your fault?
“Who told you to forget the promise between us?
“And what’s even worse…
“You turned around and walked away.
“You even said you were done looking after me.
“Were you planning to abandon me?
“How could you leave me?”
Shi Yubai frowned.
Without hesitation, he pulled the little “koala” off him.
“Xu Sui’an.
Are you seriously turning the tables on me?
“Wasn’t it you who said I meddled too much in your life?
“That I kept chasing away all the guys who liked you?
“Tell me clearly.
Who exactly abandoned whom?”
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