Chapter 52: Chasing Grand Master: Yu Sieun’s Unfinished Picture.

Yu Sieun was someone who lived her life with a plan for her future in her head.

She didn’t make plans for every single thing, but she generally kept a picture in her mind, outlining the major milestones for the work she was currently doing and the work she had to do in the future.

Those plans of Yu Sieun’s weren’t finished, static pictures. Unforeseen changes were all too common in reality. Life plans were the kind of thing that had to be changed every time something like that happened.

Yu Sieun tended to make slight modifications to the picture she had in her head whenever something like that unexpected change happened to her.

On the day when the biggest change in her life perhaps – changing the field she was devoting herself to – occurred, she changed the paper she was drawing the plan on altogether.

The name of the new picture was the future as an internet broadcaster named Yu Sieun.

This had one difference from all the other pictures Yu Sieun had drawn on her own.

This new picture wouldn’t be drawn only by Yu Sieun’s hand.

If she drew the preliminary sketch, there was one person who added the colors to it. It was a person who gave her so many things.

Absolute support and faith.

The faith and devotion that were revealed in every single action was something that Yu Sieun was receiving for the first time, and it was also the first time she had wanted to do that for someone else.

She was a pure person, so it was comfortable to meet with her, and the desire to close the distance a little more naturally grew.

The cute parts that were seen from time to time made my heart flutter to the extent that I thought, ‘Did I like that side of other people this much?’ Perhaps, it was a feeling that would be best expressed as lust, although I was embarrassed to say it.

The picture that had been drawn together with things like that was, from Yu Sieun’s perspective, shining more brightly than if you combined all the other pictures she had drawn until now.

The reason why the future she was drawing now had such a bright value for Yu Sieun herself could be easily found.

The strokes that contained a dreamy color, which had naturally formed in the picture called the future.

Yu Sieun naturally realized how to express that color in the bed of a hotel that had come after winning the tournament.

Friendship with the friend to whom she had most deeply shared her heart.

A fateful connection with the most well-matched and precious colleague.

The possessiveness towards the relationship, where she felt illogical jealousy even just when the other person was talking to someone else.

It could be said with things like that too, but if I defined it with the closest word, it was first love.

Yu Sieun hadn’t been in love before, but it’s not like she didn’t have common sense about love.

Love usually passes between people of the opposite s*x.

If she turned on the broadcast and said that she was dating someone, how many of the thousands of viewers would think that she had come to date a woman?

You could know the answer by simply thinking about it.

There wouldn’t be anyone who would have that thought.

That was the general perspective on her love that Yu Sieun knew.

The love between a woman and a woman was the love of people of the same gender. In one word, it was homosexuality. In the classification of the majority and minority, it was something that existed in the overwhelming minority.

The public’s revulsion towards homosexuality had lessened in modern times. But it was still a love that was far from normal. Yu Sieun had once read a post while wandering around the internet.

It was a post that said that she didn’t think anything of men who liked men, but that if one confessed to her, she felt like she would want to k*ll the other person.

A feeling of love that wasn’t normal.

If Yu Sieun revealed her love to the person it was directed towards, that person would think that about Yu Sieun’s own feelings. That was something that Yu Sieun absolutely didn’t want.

The feelings that pass between friends and the feelings that pass between lovers were completely different kinds, no matter how deep the friendship was.

There was one saying that had been passed down since ancient times.

The story was that a confession of love wasn’t a challenge, but the process of confirming the feelings that had already accumulated with each other.

One joke about the reaction that comes back when you throw a confession without any foreshadowing is widely spread throughout the internet world.

It was a post with the content that if you want to make a friend, you can hear the words that you should stay friends if you grab a girl and tell her to date you. That you can make a friend in that way.

To talk about the reality, that was obviously a lie.

There was a high possibility that you would receive the gaze of ‘What kind of guy is this?’ instead of the answer that you should stay friends.

This was the part that Yu Sieun feared the most.

If you confess your love to a friend, you can never recover the previous relationship if it’s not accepted.

If Ha Eunsol realized that the feelings Yu Sieun had were not feelings of friendship, but were tied to love and affection, how would she react?

The thought that she would distance herself comes to mind first.

Since she was such a kind person, she might try to hang out, thinking that Yu Sieun herself would be hurt. But the feelings that Ha Eunsol sent towards her at that time would probably be pity, not love.

That was why Yu Sieun had tried to act the same as before, even after realizing her feelings. Yu Sieun wasn’t a bold gambler who could stake what was most precious to her.

However, the feeling called first love seemed to be the kind of thing that was impossible to completely hide.

On the day she called Ha Eunsol to her house for content, Yu Sieun impulsively grabbed Ha Eunsol, who was trying to go back home. The reason she came up with in a hurry was that they should talk.

It was something that hadn’t been talked about in advance. But Ha Eunsol smiled brightly and accepted readily. It was a reaction that seemed to say it was what she had been wanting.

After the broadcast ended, Yu Sieun, who had gone into the bathroom, constantly thought about one topic while getting hit by the water. It was about what thoughts the impulse she had to keep Ha Eunsol at her house had stemmed from.

Yu Sieun had defined her impulse in a sentence at the moment she had just taken out her pillow, turned around, and taken steps towards the bed.

She, it seemed, had wanted to confirm it.

[That may be so, but I rejected them all. It’s because I didn’t have any thoughts of dating, even a little bit.]

[Unni, you don’t love me…? I’m a little sad if you react like that….]

Whether the hope that had bloomed from the other person’s small actions was just her 망상 [TL Note: delusion/fantasy].

In that way, a few hours passed as sentences came and went.

At the end of the conversation they had while in bed together, Yu Sieun was able to achieve that wish.

[…I’ve never thought about it. Things like an ideal type of man, I mean. That’s why I didn’t answer, or rather, that’s why I couldn’t. If the meaning of ‘ideal type’ means the best image you can imagine, then Unni is a perfect fit for that.]

She shouldn’t give it too much meaning.

Just reacting to one sentence that was said, each act of goodwill, and dreaming of love alone was a thing that would call misfortune.

But, Yu Sieun couldn’t help but have her fingertips tremble when she heard those words. Her heart was definitely pounding fiercely, judging from the sound she could hear in her ears.

She had thought it would be impossible, but she saw the possibility that she would be able to achieve the future she had been yearning for the most.

Yu Sieun, on that night, secretly drew another plan without her business partner who she was drawing the picture with knowing. The plan, just like the condition for the camera broadcast she had declared today, started with achieving Grand Master.

Expanding the broadcast. The preparations for that. Her improvement.

And, a picture about her relationship with one person.

5 months was an amount of time that was sufficient for a lot of changes to occur. It was a time that fell far short of the 10 years it takes for rivers and mountains to change, but it was more than enough to change the things that an individual had.

Now, 150 days after the 100,000 Q&A, Yu Sieun’s subscribers were approaching 240,000, and I had succeeded in putting the account with the nickname EunSiyu in Challenger.

The contract for the room where Yu Sieun had originally lived had expired, and Yu Sieun, who was now earning thousands of dollars in revenue per month if you estimated conservatively, had upgraded her broadcasting environment after settling in a new territory.

However, there were also things that hadn’t changed with that amount of time.

Yu Sieun was still a no-cam broadcaster.

At the same time, she was an ADC who was on average a Master 300 points player.

To put it simply, Yu Sieun hadn’t reached Grand Master yet.

Yu Sieun, who had fallen back down to the 200s after repeatedly losing from the 500s, in accordance with the law of the pendulum, seemed to have finally been brokenhearted, and was sniffling a little.

[I, I want to go to GM. Hng, heung….]

It was a truly heartbreaking thing for me, but it didn’t seem to be that way for everyone. The pain that can’t be broken by the broadcasters is something that gives enjoyment to the viewers, after all.

Yu Sieun, for the past few months, had had the point that she was being made fun of as an ill-fated ADC who couldn’t get past the wall of Grand Master while being a Master gatekeeper changed.

-Wasn’t EunSiyu this person a Challenger? Why are you doing this on a smurf when you were on a pro broadcast yesterday

This person is the real one and this person is fake~
-LOLOL

[…………Everyone get out.]

It was a trivial joke, but Yu Sieun, who had been in a state of weakened mind and body recently, just went ahead and blocked the chat function of a few viewers.

‘…I’ll have to unban them later.’

I copied the IDs of the viewers who had just been hit by the blade, and then turned my gaze back to the broadcast.

The so-called, “Yu Sieun Go to Grand Master Project” was still proceeding without seeing an end.