Chapter 63: An Unforeseen Confession and a Moment of Upheaval.

How many people on Earth have experienced being confessed to by a friend, especially their only friend?

Since there are at least 7 billion people living in the world, there probably aren’t none.

There may be quite a few people in the world who have witnessed such a thing happening around them, or who have been the person involved.

But knowing that fact didn’t help calm my confusion right now.

Hearing about such a thing existing in the world is completely different from actually experiencing it as the person involved.

I had never imagined that such a situation would happen to me. I had no idea how I should act now.

My reason, which hadn’t yet recovered from the shock, was not in a state where it could function enough to spit out the correct answer.

‘…What do I do.’

The way of thinking I had a long time ago doesn’t fit the current situation.

The me when I thought that if I had a same-s*x friend confessing to me, I would punch them in the face as part of mental correction, and the me now are so different.

First of all, I changed, and accordingly, the gender of the same-s*x friend confessing to me was the opposite.

I had never seriously thought about this surreal thing that happened to me after I started living as the New Ha Eunsol, as I called myself.

To be exact, I tried to think about it seriously but gave up.

It was for mental protection.

I was just living thinking that I was just Ha Eunsol, whether I was a man or a woman.

I thought I was living a life that had to be adjusted to the female Ha Eunsol side now.

Originally, that was enough.

There was no need to have complex-sounding worries about my own gender identity.

I had something I wanted to do.

There was no part where I had to put love in it.

I was able to become friends with Yu Sieun with such a mindset.

The embarrassment I felt when I first looked at Yu Sieun and blushed had completely disappeared as I defined the relationship between me and Yu Sieun as an ordinary friendship.

‘…Really, what do I do.’

But Yu Sieun confessed to me just now.

She said that a different kind of emotion was hidden in the relationship that I considered a friendship.

I recalled the words I had just heard.

I like you. I love you. Eunsol-ah.

If it was just the words I like you, I might be able to get over it somehow.

But the word love and my name that followed right after were clearly revealing Yu Sieun’s feelings towards me.

Yu Sieun now regards me as an object of affection, not friendship.

I could definitely realize this fact.

It was an understanding that made my head a little more confused and made my heart beat a little faster. I could be the object of Yu Sieun’s love.

When I realized that fact, another thought came to my mind.

‘Ah.’

It was a thought about the emotions Yu Sieun must be feeling now.

I recalled the words that Yu Sieun had conveyed to me until just before.

There was one expression that came to mind.

She said she knew, but she wanted to say it clearly first. I didn’t know what it meant when I heard it, but I know now. It must have been about love.

But I have never talked to Yu Sieun with this kind of emotion, and I have never had this kind of thought.

Perhaps a misunderstanding arose from some point. Now that misunderstanding has burst out. With such a big wave.

Let’s recall.

After confessing, thinking that each other had the same heart, I approached the other person who was smiling quietly, but suddenly that other person threw their body to the other side and screamed, “Are you crazy?”

‘……ot.’

It was a difficult situation that would receive sympathy rather than ridicule even if it was posted on some internet community.

About 10 seconds after throwing my body to the side from the sofa, I was able to understand a little of the feelings of Yu Sieun, who was still frozen and shaking her eyes violently.

I also became aware of what I had done to Yu Sieun’s pure heart and mentality, even a little.

I first took out the words that I felt like I had to say to Yu Sieun right away.

“U, unnie. The “are you crazy” part was a slip of the tongue for a moment.

“Ah, heu. Heueup… I, I’m sorry. Eunsol-ah. I’m sorry…….”

Unfortunately, the point at which I started speaking was almost the same time that Yu Sieun, who hadn’t cried even after achieving Grandmaster, started shedding tears.

There were quite a few things I was curious about right now.

The most curious thing was about the background of Yu Sieun’s confession.

Things like when she became aware of her emotions, and what was the time and reason that she thought I had the same heart as her.

They were questions that I could only know the answers to by asking Yu Sieun.

But right now, Yu Sieun was sobbing for a few minutes after her tears burst, then looking at my face, and crying a little more and looking at my face again.

She was in a state of anxiety and confusion to the point of being pathetic.

The visual destructive power was considerable as Yu Sieun’s appearance was added to the effect that the appearance of a crying woman usually has.

Even if she didn’t do anything wrong, I would feel guilty if I thought that my actions had any influence on that appearance, even a little.

There was no way I could ask Yu Sieun, who was showing such an appearance, why she had confessed.

‘Huu…….’

I thought I had to calm Yu Sieun down first.

I had to find out what thoughts were flowing through Yu Sieun’s head to make her cry like that.

“…Unnie, are you okay?”

“U, ung…. I’m okay, heup. I’m okay. I’m sorry.”

“Stop saying you’re sorry. You didn’t do anything wrong….”

However, I couldn’t think of a single way to calm Yu Sieun down.

Hearing a confession from a friend. I think that even a pure woman would have been embarrassed enough.

There was no way I would have knowledge of what to do in this situation.

So I decided to use a blunt method. By throwing a fastball at the place where I roughly had a sense of it.

Thinking about the word ‘sorry’ that Yu Sieun was constantly saying to me, Yu Sieun seemed to think that the confession she had made to me was wrong.

Perhaps she was afraid of how the relationship would change because of that.

I was going to take out the simplest sentences that could express my thoughts to Yu Sieun right now.

In fact, I was only pretending to be rational and my head was hot and messed up, so it was also the only content that I could say for sure.

“Unnie. We’re still friends now, right?”

“Yeah. We’re friends. I’m sorry….”

“No, I’m telling you it’s not that I’m sorry….”

“Heu, heueup. Did I make you feel bad? I’m sorry……”

“Unnie, stop!”

“Hiccup!”

Yu Sieun was showing the appearance of someone who had some kind of trauma, so I focused Yu Sieun’s attention by making a firm sound.

“I didn’t feel bad. I was just surprised. Because it was something I had never imagined… such a thing.”

“…Okay.”

“It’s just… I was so surprised because I didn’t know until now that you could look at me with such eyes, because I found out in an instant. So I said those words. Rather, I’m thinking that I’m thankful that you told me….”

Of course, Yu Sieun and I are still friends. Also, Yu Sieun’s confession was not a bad thing for me. I don’t know about an ordinary woman, but for me as the New Ha Eunsol.

That’s all I could say for sure right now.

“But, I think I should postpone the answer to what you told me, unnie. I’ve never thought about both receiving and giving such… love to you.”

As I thought just before, now was the starting point of great changes.

It would be good to finish it like this for now, as a period that should be called a period of upheaval was about to begin.

“First, let’s live like usual. How about we think about it after the season is over? Because you have something you’re aiming for, unnie. I’ll think about it a little more in the meantime.”

“Okay…. I understand.”

“Please don’t cry like you are right now, because my heart will hurt a lot. This is just something I have to think about, and it’s not like you did anything wrong to me or anything like that. You know that, right?”

I finished saying the last words, got up from where I was sitting, and approached Yu Sieun.

I was thinking of adding sincerity with actions so that Yu Sieun could fully believe what I had just said.

I stood in front of Yu Sieun, spread my arms, and gently hugged Yu Sieun.

Yu Sieun trembled slightly the moment her body slightly touched mine.

The fact that I would have to use the word love to interpret the meaning of this reaction from now on was a fact with the power to really make people fools.