Chapter 8: A Missed Opportunity and a Second Chance.

Regret.

Devastation.

Obsession.

Three words that deal with the stickiest kind of emotions that can arise between human relationships.

It would be a terrible taste for each other in the relationship, but from the perspective of other people, situations involving so-called “Hoo-Pi-Jip” are very stimulating and fun.

It doesn’t necessarily have to be a real story.

Rather, it was a material that could be used more interestingly in fictional stories.

The sticky three brothers of regret, devastation, and obsession are emotional lines that are easy to create interesting stories from.

The problem is, too many people have come to know about it.

It doesn’t matter to those who supply web novels, but among some readers, there began to be talk that they were worried about the flood of stories that were becoming increasingly similar.

There were even criticisms on a fundamental level.

Most of the stories dealing with regret, devastation, and obsession are one-sentence of the kind of irony, “In the first episode, the protagonist and other characters meet all at once and talk for only 10 minutes, and that’s the end.”

Yu Sieun, who used to enjoy web novels quite a bit on the subway, knew this fact well.

The fastest and most effective way to solve the sticky three brothers is conversation.

So, what she has to do now is also clear.

The only way to cleanly erase the sticky emotions that are full in Yu Sieun’s head is conversation.

‘…You still haven’t seen the email.’

But the conversation isn’t reaching.

So Yu Sieun regretted and was devastated a little more.

I felt like I was going to be obsessed soon, but I was working hard to hold back that shameless thing.

Four days after the collaboration broadcast, the 10-person internal war.

During that time, Yu Sieun’s own broadcast started to explode.

Not in a bad way, but in a good way.

As a broadcaster, EunSiyu knew that her growth rate was really steep.

From 2 weeks ago from now.

When I looked around at other people with a similar number of followers to myself, I couldn’t help but know if I wasn’t an idiot.

Originally, I would have thought that this path was right around that time.

I would have proceeded with confidence.

However, it seemed that the aftermath of being completely betrayed after having confidence carelessly still remained deep in my heart.

A feeling that I should be recognized a little more.

To be sure, a little more.

A month in which I continued to postpone the decision with that feeling.

Without realizing that there was something I hadn’t realized during that time.

I spent a month lost in my own worries, forgetting that my growth rate was receiving the help of unprecedented goodwill.

Four days after the collaboration broadcast, I realized that fact suddenly while rewatching the video of the fan channel.

Participating in the 10-person internal war is the starting point of the broadcast explosion phenomenon that is happening now.

However, the fact that the explosion is so huge and long-lasting was greatly influenced by the videos uploaded to YouTube.

Two videos, totaling more than 50 minutes, uploaded less than a day after the internal war ended.

Until now, three days after the upload of the EunSiyu fan channel, no videos related to the internal war have been uploaded to other broadcasters’ YouTube channels.

I had vaguely felt what I had been feeling vaguely, but now that I read the comments that were on the videos again, I realized for sure.

How much of what I’m doing is in the realm outside of common sense.

‘Since the end of the internal war… you would have stayed up all night and continued editing. That’s how you get this speed.’

The chain of realizations continued at a very fast pace for a moment, and Yu Sieun reached a conclusion containing a scary fact.

She was missing out on something really big.

The editor of the fan channel who caused the current situation,

While she was postponing the decision, that person had been editing without pay for a month.

While showing this much passion.

It was completely outside of my awareness.

I was really, really stupid.

‘Ah……?’

Yu Sieun realized how bad what she was doing was.

And I realized that the time to whine that I wasn’t sure was long gone.

If I whine any more, I’m a crazy b*tch.

Yu Sieun decided right away in her heart.

Let’s suggest to the person who runs the fan channel to do YouTube together.

And, even if it’s not enough, let’s pay for what you’ve done for me so far to the extent that I can now.

After taking out ₩3 million from the bank account where I had saved the money, Yu Sieun started writing an email.

I put in the words I wanted to say.

That I’m really grateful for what you’ve done for me so far.

That I wanted to offer it sooner, but there were circumstances.

That I’m really sorry.

As the last sentence, a suggestion to contact the contact information left if you have the intention to start YouTube together.

However, even though four days had passed since I sent the email, the email had not been read.

The video uploads of the fan channel had also stopped for more than a week, with the internal war videos being the last.

I regret it.

When I think about the question of why you don’t read the email, countless reasons come to mind.

If I think about what I’ve done for the past month from the perspective of the person who edits the fan channel.

It was almost completely ignored.

Even the owner of the flower shop who betrayed me praised me, but the human Yu Sieun was not doing that either.

To the person who has been constantly showing me abilities that are dozens of times greater than mine.

‘…I’m a fool. I’m trash. I was the same person.’

‘If you could just let me say one word, I would apologize right away.’

Yu Sieun had to doubt whether she had seriously developed bipolar disorder for the past four days since sending the email.

When I broadcast, I’m so happy that I wonder if it’s okay to be like this.

When the broadcast ends, I blame myself so much that I wonder if it’s okay to be like this.

8 days after the collaboration broadcast.

Now that the broadcast is off, Yu Sieun regretted and was devastated.

In the end, it seemed that I had become a little obsessed.

I died and came back to life.

I’m not talking nonsense, but for the past 8 days, I had dipped my toes in the Samdo River.

I had completely forgotten after dealing with it for the first time, but the new Ha Eunsol had a body that met the conditions to cast magic on a regular basis in life.

I came to realize the fact that I only knew in writing.

That there are individual differences in pain.

That even the same person changes the intensity from time to time.

And, that if you experience that magic time in a state where you’ve done crazy things that your physical strength doesn’t allow, it really hurts like crazy.

The magic time with body aches and a cold was really terrible.

I had to spend more than a week lying in bed and groaning.

Since I was feeling feverish, dizzy, and my whole body was aching and feeling strange, I could only lie down and close my eyes.

The little energy that was generated had to be used for survival and hygiene, so I just lay down.

So this morning.

8 days of fighting the disease.

Still, I felt a little better today.

I felt like the body aches and the magic were over.

The little bit of vitality flowing through my body that I was feeling for the first time in a long time.

My body condition was good enough to think that I could recover to daily life, so I shook off the blanket and got up and moved to the bathroom first.

My body was fine until I washed and dried my hair.

After gaining a little more confidence, I sat in front of the computer for the first time in a long time.

I moved the mouse to check my email first as a habit.

‘…Oh?’

That’s how I found it.

The emails that had started coming from the one with the name EunSiyu four days ago.

As a result of checking with trembling hands, it was not impersonation.

Because it was the account I had sent the email to.

There were a total of six emails from EunSiyu.

Each with a different title.

Strangely, each one contained the meaning of being sorry for something.

…?’

Even the title of the most recent email was an apology for repeatedly sending emails.

The contact had been cut off since then.

I vaguely realized the situation.

‘Oh…?’

I muttered a low curse after a long time, and opened the first email that came.

The content was the same as what the vague prediction contained.

A suggestion to run a YouTube channel together.

Something I had really been waiting for for the past few weeks.

At the moment I saw the email, the vague guess I had been making from the moment I saw the email turned into certainty, and my heart started beating as if it would explode.

Deep breath.

Slowly.

I took out my phone, added the messenger ID written in the email as a friend, and started writing a message.

I typed a greeting including the words that I’m contacting you after seeing the email.

It’s not time to broadcast, so it won’t be a hindrance to send it right away.

‘Haa…’

My heart was beating so fast that I thought I might get sick again if I stayed in this state.

I even had the illusion that I could hear my heartbeat in my ear.

‘I hope you see it soon.’

At the moment I thought that and turned off the phone screen, the screen lit up again with a notification that a message had arrived.

‘…?’

EunSiyu’s reply was fast.

Even though it was what I wanted, it was a little scary.