Chapter 23: Precious Daily Life

Another day passed, and there were about 30 minutes left until the suspension was lifted and I could start broadcasting.

It’s only been three days.

The period I’ve been off the air hasn’t been long, but I keep getting nervous.

Maybe I’m even more nervous than when I first started broadcasting.

At least back then, I didn’t know anything, so I didn’t know what to be afraid of, but now I know very well what I’m afraid of.

[64-year-old Grandma Choi Mal-ja’s Key Battle with All Her Might (2/5)]

[Today is the day Hiro’s suspension is lifted]

[Okayㅡㅡ Let’s go inㅡㅡ]

The coordinates were already marked in the community.

A scheduled destiny.

They will storm into my broadcast and cause all sorts of chaos, and I have to endure it.

I turn on the voice chat program and call my manager.

「~♪♬」

After a few rings, the manager answered the phone.

“Cha In-a, are you ready?”

“It’s not like I said I’d be your manager, are you sure you’re not exploiting me too much?”

“Just do it.”

“Hey, you…”

The manager also seemed full of enthusiasm.

“But I can’t help it. If we mess up today, we could get suspended again.”

The Switch’s operating policy had the following clause:

[Failure to manage the chat window may be grounds for streaming suspension.]

That’s right.

Even the fact that the chat window is a mess is attributed to the streamer’s responsibility.

Now that I’m just getting out of suspension, if I get suspended again because the chat window isn’t managed, there’s no way to deal with it.

In terms of sequence, and because I was suspended again as soon as I was released from suspension, I would definitely be subject to an unforgiving permanent suspension for the crime of being unpleasant.

“I don’t have anyone else to ask.”

“No, there are other viewers, right?”

“You want me to entrust the manager to them?”

The manager, Song Cha-in, was silent for a while after hearing my words.

She probably didn’t have anyone suitable to entrust it to, even in her own opinion.

After thinking for a long time, she finally opened her mouth, as if there was no answer.

“There’s really not a single person.”

“Right?”

“Sigh… then do I get paid hourly for this?”

The manager reluctantly agreed to my offer to buy her a chicken.

After ending the call with the manager, I refreshed the internet window.

And finally,
My broadcast channel came back to life.

The phrase ‘channel has expired’ disappeared, and the familiar broadcast waiting screen and chat window took its place.

Finally, the right to broadcast had returned.

[Your heroine Hiro, here she comes!]

It was a remnant of the last broadcast.

The broadcast was suspended before I could change the title…

First of all, let’s change the title.

I wondered how I should change it.

Quite a lot has changed since then.

Now that things have come to this, it was impossible to broadcast without turning on the cam anymore.

Now the people who are coming are the people who are coming after seeing the video of me turning on the cam.

If I don’t turn on the cam, they’ll make a mess of the chat window asking why I’m not turning on the cam.

Turning on the cam was also essential to take advantage of this opportunity.

And the existing concept may not be very meaningful anymore.

It was an exaggerated behavior to hide that I was a man, but now I’ve become a real woman.

But my existing viewers will like that… what should I do?

I was worried.

However, the time left was short, so the worry ended quickly.

No matter what happens to today’s broadcast, it was my existing viewers who kept my broadcast going until now.

For my viewers, I decided to broadcast as before, at least for now.

I changed the broadcast title.

[Your heroine, Hiro, is back after 3 days!]

The usual exaggerated title, the excessive concept.

But that’s it.

That’s what my broadcast was like.

“Aaa, aaaㅡ♪”

It may not mean much now that I’m a woman, but I clear my throat too.

The voice of a woman that has now become my own voice.

It’s a voice I’ve been using for a long time, but it felt different.

Is it because it’s not a voice I’m intentionally making, but a voice I’m making comfortably?

Having cleared my throat, I finally turned on the cam.

What’s different from before.

I can no longer hide behind the painting and have to show my whole self to everyone.

And the whole self that I have to show is no longer me.

An unfamiliar face and an unfamiliar body that have been realized as someone’s ideal image.

Nevertheless, I have to accept it.

For this,
I’ve already given up too much for the sake of being able to stand in front of everyone and not having to lie anymore.

And even if I turn the clock back, I can’t turn back time with human power.

If it’s something I can’t undo,
Wouldn’t it be right to make the most of it?

I display the screen that the cam is filming on the monitor.

When I looked at the monitor, I made eye contact with myself, who was making an awkward expression.

My appearance is still awkward.

Objectively, I thought I was pretty, but it’s a bit strange when it’s myself.

What if I agreed to the offer to give you the most beautiful woman in the world, and I became the most beautiful woman in the world?

How many people would like that?

…Or is it? I think there would be more than I thought.

I shook my head and shook off the distractions.

It’s almost time to broadcast, so let’s just focus on the broadcast.

So that I can broadcast as usual, I do the usual rehearsal.

“Hoo… ha…”

“Let’s spend another day with your heroine Hiro! Welcome, everyone~”

“Aaa~ A… Kyaaaa!!!”

“Aww~ You’re all so mean~”

“…”

What can I say?

I became a woman and did it with a woman’s body, but
Somehow
…it’s more disgusting?

“Guweeeeck…!”

I endured the disgust more than ever and vomited.

At least until now, I didn’t have to see my own expressions or gestures.

But
Turning on the cam
And doing a concept in front of that cam and acting cute,
And watching that scene with my own eyes in real time…

“Should I just quit the concept?”

The thought crossed my mind, but I shook my head again.

Shouldn’t I take responsibility for the viewers who have liked me so far and for the lies I’ve been telling so far?

I pulled myself together and looked at the clock.

There were only about 5 minutes left.

When I glanced at the chat window, I could already see my viewers waiting for me.

[Noonaaaaa when are you comingaaaa]

[I’ll hold my breath until Hiro comes Heup]

[It’s so boring without Noona… come quickly, cry]

[I wonder if she’ll turn on the cam today?]

[Since she didn’t say she’d turn it on in the future, I don’t think she will?]

There were quite a few silly chats, but they felt rather friendly, perhaps because it had been three days since I’d seen them.

There was 1 minute left until 7 o’clock.

Considering the time it takes for the broadcast to be transmitted, it was 50 seconds, 49 seconds, 48 seconds…

I had turned on the cam and broadcast before, but
It was the first time I was turning on the broadcast to do a cam broadcast from the beginning, so I felt strangely restless.

10 seconds, 9 seconds, 8 seconds until 7 o’clock…

…

Time flows.

7 o’clock 1 second, 3 seconds, 5 seconds.

[??? What’s going on?]

[Why isn’t Hiro-nim coming?]

[What’s wrong, did something happen?]

[Noona… when are you coming…]

And at 7:50,
I pressed the broadcast start button.

[I can’t hold my breath anymore… Noona, come quickly…]

[Oh, she’s here]

[Ha Hiro Ha Hiro~]

[Hiro-nim Ha Hiro~]

[Congratulations on your release!]

[Popopo donated 100,000 won!!]

[Congratulations on your release, this is for tofu]

Watching people’s chats and donations, I switched the broadcast screen from standby.

The screen with the cam turned on was broadcast.

[Oh?]

[What, are you broadcasting with the cam on?]

[ㅗㅜㅑㅗㅜㅑ]

[Noonaaaaa I’m dying!!]

[Ha Hiro~]

[Ha Hiro 1 try]

[Congratulations on your release~]

[Hiro Taesik! You’re back!]

I looked at the camera and greeted the viewers.

As always.

“Ha Hiro Ha Hiro~ Let’s spend another day with your heroine Hiro! Welcome, everyone~ I’m out!”

[Lololol what is she doing with the cam on lololol]

[Wow lololol she’s a pro she’s a pro]

[Lololololol a grown woman is doing that lololololol]

These guys.

I did it, risking my embarrassment, but.

I was annoyed for a moment, but I laughed it off.

These people are my viewers.

I smiled as hard as I could and said to the people.

“Everyone~ I’m sorry. I’m 1 minute late again~”

[It was a very long 1 minute…]

[It’s okay, Hiro-nim]

[Oh, it’s okay. Did you get enough rest for 3 days?]

Looking at the people who were rather worried about me,
I threw out a word.

“Well~ I’m 1 minute late, so I should explain, right?”

[?]

[?]

[lol]

[?]

[Ah lololol]

Some of the people who heard my words expressed question marks, and some expressed laughter as if they understood.

And

[Ex]

[Plan]

[Ex]

As soon as the first sentence was completed, everyone knew.

And everyone together

[You’re such a latecomer]

[Explain your lateness]

[Ex]

[Plan]

[Ex]

[Ex]

[Ex]

[I could have come on time, but I was late, right? I’m locking]

[The aegyo is sharp]

[Ex]

[Ex]

[Plan]

[Ex]

Yeah
This is my broadcast.

There are a lot of forced things and a lot of brain circuits, but
Still, this look is familiar and friendly.

I’m so grateful to you all.

Please take care of me in the future too

[Ex]

[Plan]

[Okay, let’s go~ Okay, let’s go~ Okay, let’s go~ Okay, let’s go~ Okay, let’s go~ Okay, let’s go~ Okay, let’s go~ Okay, let’s go~ Okay, let’s go~ Okay, let’s go~ Okay, let’s go~ Okay, let’s go~ Okay, let’s go~ Okay, let’s go~ Okay, let’s go~ Okay, let’s go~ Okay, let’s go~ Okay, let’s go~ Okay, let’s go~ ]

[Ex]

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[The milk dispenser is solid]

[Cry! Give me milk! Cry! Give me milk! Cry! Give me milk! Cry! Give me milk! Cry! Give me milk! Cry! Give me milk! Cry! Give me milk! Cry! Give me milk! Cry! Give me milk! Cry! Give me milk! Cry! Give me milk! Cry! Give me milk! Cry! Give me milk! Cry! Give me milk! Cry! ]

[I love you autumn I love you autumn I love you autumn I love you autumn I love you autumn I love you autumn I love you autumn I love you autumn I love you autumn I love you autumn I love you autumn I love you autumn I love you autumn I love you autumn I love you autumn]

[What the f*ck]

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[America TV Dongpungshin long live! America TV Dongpungshin long live! America TV Dongpungshin long live! America TV Dongpungshin long live! America TV Dongpungshin long live! America TV Dongpungshin long live! America TV Dongpungshin long live! ]

[Receive the baptism of the Flying Dutchman Receive the baptism of the Flying Dutchman Receive the baptism of the Flying Dutchman Receive the baptism of the Flying Dutchman Receive the baptism of the Flying Dutchman Receive the baptism of the Flying Dutchman Receive the baptism of the Flying Dutchman Receive the baptism of the Flying Dutchman Receive the baptism of the Flying Dutchman Receive the baptism of the Flying Dutchman Receive the baptism of the Flying Dutchman Receive the baptism of the Flying Dutchman Receive the baptism of the Flying Dutchman Receive the baptism of the Flying Dutchman Receive the baptism of the Flying Dutchman]

[I think the coordinates have been marked]

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[Are you a virgin? Are you a virgin? Are you a virgin? Are you a virgin? Are you a virgin? Are you a virgin? Are you a virgin? Are you a virgin? Are you a virgin? Are you a virgin? Are you a virgin? Are you a virgin? Are you a virgin? Are you a virgin? Are you a virgin? Are you a virgin? Are you a virgin? Are you a virgin? Are you a virgin? Are you a virgin? Are you a virgin? Are you a virgin? Are you a virgin? Are you a virgin? Are you a virgin?]

[Let’s put on follow chat]

[Nurinet, please stop…Nurinet, please stop…Nurinet, please stop…Nurinet, please stop…Nurinet, please stop…Nurinet, please stop…Nurinet, please stop…Nurinet, please stop…Nurinet, please stop…Nurinet, please stop…Nurinet, please stop…Nurinet, please stop…Nurinet, please stop…Nurinet, please stop…Nurinet, please stop…Nurinet, please stop…Nurinet, please stop…Nurinet, please stop…Nurinet, please stop…Nurinet, please stop…Nurinet, please stop…Nurinet, please stop…Nurinet, please stop…Nurinet, please stop…]

[Yeah~ Whatever TV~ So Whatever TV~ No one asked TV~ What are you gonna do~ So Jjallae mi~ Kukurupingpongpong~ Are you angry? Are you so annoyed? Do you want to kill me? You don’t know where I live anyway, right? Yeah~ You can’t kill me, right? Oh~ Are you getting pissed off again? You don’t know anything, right? Are you just angry? Yes~ I understand~ No one asked, no one’s curious~ Did anyone ask? Is anyone curious? Yeah~ But what about Whatever TV? Are you teasing me? Yeah~ Whatever, So Whatever, no one asked, no one’s curious~]

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Ah, sh*t, they’re already here.