Chapter 54: I’m the Cutest Girl in This World

“Ugh, anyway, I’m telling you, he’s stronger than you, stronger than all of us. You saw my sister…” The General choked up here, sobbing a little. “That was only five days! Just five days! But he lasted twenty-two days! More than four times as long!”

“I’m sorry, I’m sorry. I really didn’t know he was so mentally fragile. I…”

“Sorry? Hah, you didn’t know? Huh???” He sighed, then lowered his voice and accused her frantically: “You saw my sister, and yet you pushed a kid who was on the verge of a breakdown like that? To the point that he jumped off a building?”

“But I heard he was pretty cheerful…” Anna seemed about to cry. Her voice was weak and delicate.

“Ugh, that’s why you don’t get it. He was deceiving himself to protect himself… oh god. I’m telling you, if I hadn’t happened to be practicing my sword there that night, you would have been in big trouble!”

“Mm…” This time she really seemed to cry. From that sob, I could tell she was saying: “So, you… are you going to tell Qiaolu?”

I understood now. The General had been protecting me and comforting me all along because he also had a sister who had gone through something similar to me.

Heh, having a family is nice…

Heh, I want to die…

My head was full of negative thoughts. I had no idea why I should go on living. It felt like everyone around me was luckier than me, everyone was more normal than me, everyone had been favored by heaven! Loved by fate!

“Little idiot! Why would I tell anyone? I saved you. Why would I hurt you? Ugh…” The General smiled bitterly and patted Anna’s head. He continued very gently: “You and Jiushi are my friends. How could I harm you? Besides, Anna, I know you didn’t mean it. I was a bit harsh just now, but it’s for your own good. Because I know that if I didn’t say something, with your personality, you’d keep blaming yourself forever. When you make a mistake, it’s better to be scolded by someone than to regret it alone, right?”

After saying this, the General suddenly knocked on Jiushi’s door.

Knock knock.

“Jiushi, don’t be angry anymore. Anna didn’t do it on purpose. Forgive her.”

‘What??? Wait, how did Anna not notice me, but the General did? Bro is amazing!’

I didn’t respond. I just stood there, continuing to listen.

But it seemed the General had already left.

I stood there blankly, feeling strange inside.

I had been feeling so down, but the General’s words made me feel warm.

But I was also deeply aware of my filthy body, the curse that was going to kill me, and my inability to use magic…

I wanted to die, but I also wanted to live…

I felt like I was going crazy. But for a moment, images of male anime and movie protagonists looking dejected flashed through my mind.

‘f*ck, I’m not a protagonist. Acting all dejected or crazy probably wouldn’t do jack shit. If anything, they might just throw me back to the demon.’

I don’t know what a normal person would do with so many things piled up. Sorry, God, but I want to die.

Just as I was pondering philosophy, Anna suddenly walked in.

A crystal lamp floated beside her. Of course, even without the lamp, my room was bright enough from the moonlight.

Her face was flushed, tears still in her eyes, and she still wore that gorgeous gothic puffy dress.

She looked absolutely enchanting. Even someone like me, who had played plenty of gal games, couldn’t help but think she might be a 2D girl. Though I’m probably not much different…

But I wasn’t in the mood! I gave her a cold, indifferent look.

Actually, it wasn’t that I wasn’t in the mood. It’s just that my body was too young now, couldn’t even masturbate. Having gone so long without it, I had almost forgotten what it was like to be a normal healthy guy.

Right now, I just wanted to die.

‘What? Act crazy? Act cute? Act pitiful? What’s that? Can you eat it? Anyway, I don’t care what you different personalities used to think. I just want to die.’

‘You coward.’

‘Say whatever you want.’

Anna was fidgeting in front of me like a child who had done something wrong and was facing her parents. Her face was full of sadness and apology.

But she was taller than me, so how could I possibly be… Well, she was cute! So cute that you’d want to bully her.

But! I wasn’t in the mood. I just wanted to find a chance to die without a care.

“Um… Jiushi… uh… I-I-I… uh… I’m sorry!” She stammered, trying hard to keep her tears from falling, shyly clutching her dress. Her cherry-pink, tear-filled eyes looked away, not daring to meet mine.

How should I describe her? Too cute. She was like a little girl afraid of punishment, or a cold queen forced to apologize? But she was a literary girl.

Her hoarse voice couldn’t hide her cuteness. The madness, killing intent, and coldness from “that time” were completely gone.

But!! I didn’t give a crap what she looked like. I’m the cutest girl in this world!

I kept a straight face, looked at her hopelessly, and said flatly: “Oh, okay. Are you done? If so, I’m going out.”

“Wha?!”

Anna looked at Jiushi in shock. She had no idea why Jiushi had become like this. This voice? This tone? This wasn’t Jiushi at all! The Jiushi before her had completely changed. Cold, expressionless, like a puppet!

While Anna was still bewildered, Jiushi strolled over to the window, pulled a chair over from the vanity, and opened the French window.

“Ah! The moonlight is so pure!” I took a satisfied deep breath, then suddenly recited a poem: “I lean alone on the tall tower, the wind is fine! Gazing at the spring sorrow, dimly it rises to the sky!” When I said the word “rise,” I started climbing the railing, ready to jump off the building for the second time!

“Ah! Crappy world! I’m done playing with you!”

“Whoa! What are you doing?!” Anna grabbed me around the waist with lightning speed.

“Let go of me! I don’t know you! Do you have a problem with me wanting to die?” I struggled desperately.

However, I forgot that the girl behind me was a mage. She must have all sorts of buffs!

So no matter how I struggled, even kicking Anna’s shins with my heel, it was useless. Her grip around my torso was strong, and my kicks were blocked by layers of barriers.

“No! You can’t die! It’s all my fault! Anna was wrong! Anna was wrong! Please don’t do this!” Anna cried, her hoarse voice almost begging.

I still wanted to jump! But Anna was stronger and taller than me, so she lifted me right off the ground, and I was carried farther and farther away from the balcony.

I struggled crazily, shouting: “No! I’m going to die today!”

“No!!” Anna yelled, then suddenly spun me around 180 degrees!

In an instant, Anna and I were face to face, her fair, adorable face right in front of me. ‘So suddenly this close! My heart couldn’t help pounding.’ Before I realized what she was going to do, her face pressed directly against mine, our lips touching!

Her soft lips pressed against my mouth, and her breath swept across my face.

“Mmph!” I was shocked! What was this? But my mouth was already blocked.

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