Chapter 52: The Breaking Point

Anna’s face was full of awkwardness. She pressed on, “Haha, sorry. But the Moke you mentioned? Could it be the Smoker?”

“Hmph, I don’t know. You’re so good at reading minds, why don’t you read it yourself!” I continued to act petulant, turning my head away, pretending to be unhappy.

I thought she would coax me or something, but… something I never expected happened.

Suddenly, Anna’s eyes, which had been gentle, turned icy cold. She raised an eyebrow, a murderous intent flashing in her gaze.

Then, she pushed her palms toward me. Two whirlwinds flew from her hands, the strong wind pressure lifting me up. Then I was locked in the air by a wind prison.

“Ah?!” I was terrified by the sudden change. What, what was happening? Why did Anna suddenly act like this?

At that moment, Anna walked toward me, her brow radiating immense killing intent. “Tell me now!” Her hoarse, angry voice sent chills down my spine. Her golden-purple eyes had lost all tenderness, entirely tainted by murderous intent. It was like the gaze of a falcon before it hunts, making my heart race wildly.

In this world… I could do nothing. Without magic, I couldn’t even resist.

I was terrified to the extreme. I had no idea how to answer her. I didn’t reply.

Seeing my silence, Anna’s anger grew more. It was as if she were looking at her father’s murderer, that twisted expression condensed on her cute face.

Then she flew in front of me. The closeness of her angry face made me even more afraid. She raised her hand and brought it down hard toward me.

I thought she was going to slap me, but that wasn’t it at all. With a tearing sound, my clothes and pants were ripped to shreds by her ‘slap.’ (A wind-type auxiliary magic that gathers wind blades between the fingers.) Then I felt a burning sensation from my chest to the outside of my thighs. The wounds weren’t deep, but they were definitely bleeding.

“Ahh.” I cried out in pain. The count’s badge pinned to my clothes fell to the ground with a crisp metallic sound.

Then this always kind and gentle mage flashed behind me like lightning. Her hands began to fondle my body obscenely.

“Ah?!” My mind went blank. What was going on? How did it suddenly come to this? Was I going to die again?

Anna whispered coldly in my ear, “Ah, I say, you newbie. Who do you think you’re talking to? I give you a little face, and you want to fly?” Her icy tone and hoarse, nightmare-like voice made my heart beat even faster.

Die? Die???

She wrapped one hand around my neck and said in a sweet yet chilling voice, “From the first time I saw you, I’ve been eavesdropping on your inner thoughts. I know everything you think. So I’m the one in this castle who understands you best. You’re not like the other kids. Because you’re a b*tch! You always put on a pitiful act. Actually, you just want others to play with your body, don’t you? You despicable little brat.” “Huh??”

“Oh, I know you want to say that’s not true, that it’s all the demons’ fault. Hmph, don’t fool yourself. Your acting makes me sick to the bone. It disgusts me.” Her gloomy purple eyes stared at my tear-filled red eyes.

Before I could speak, just as the thought crossed my mind, she said it first.

“You…” She laughed angrily, wanting to continue. Her hands, stained with my blood, continued to fondle my body.

At this point, I couldn’t take it anymore. My bottom line had been trampled. How could I stay silent!

I! Would never forgive this woman! Even if I died! I would punch her!

Instantly, I shouted, “Don’t touch me!” My anger could no longer be contained. You could call me weak! You could say I was putting on an act! But I absolutely would not allow you to call me a b*tch, a despicable person!

I gritted my teeth fiercely and pulled my hands and feet back with all my strength. Even if the wind shackles peeled off a layer of skin, I would break free from this annoying restraint.

Anna still had murderous intent in her eyes. She looked down on me calmly, “What do you want to do?” Her indifferent expression seemed to mock me, mocking this bug that couldn’t even use magic.

I grew angrier. I continued to pull my arm. A tearing pain shot from my wrist, but I had no intention of stopping.

Bright red blood flowed down my wrist, along my pale, weak arm, staining the remnants of clothes still hanging on me.

But at that moment, the wind shackles binding my hands and feet suddenly disappeared. I fell from about half a meter in the air.

“Tch!” I fell, it hurt, but not too much. I glanced at the cuts on my wrists, then stood up with a furious expression.

I understood that this restraint wasn’t undone by me, but by Anna. That made me even angrier.

I immediately got up, stood firmly on the ground, and looked up at Anna, who had also just landed.

I was completely naked, but I didn’t feel ashamed at all.

Blood dripped from the corner of my mouth. I looked at Anna with utmost hatred. She and I glared at each other.

My fist had been clenched for a long time, ready to strike. But the moment I met Anna’s eyes, I… I couldn’t bring myself to do it.

‘That time with Tiffany…’ I chickened out. I was afraid of being controlled by that thing again. I was afraid of becoming a meat s*ave again. I didn’t want to bring the puppet…

As fragments of memory flickered back, my mind suddenly recalled all the hardships I had endured since coming to this world.

Suddenly, something inside me that had just been repaired broke.

I didn’t care anymore. What was dying? No big deal!

My eyes full of tears, I roared, “I tell you, Anna! I allow people to say I’m weak, because I really don’t have magic. But I don’t allow people to say I’m despicable! Even if I feel I have no dignity left! I absolutely won’t allow you to say that!” With that, I tore off the earring from my earlobe and hurled it at Anna’s face. Unfortunately, I missed.

My earlobe hurt, but I didn’t care at all.

“You are very strong. I can guess that you might be the strongest mage in Huaying City. But I want to tell you! It’s precisely because you are strong! You have magic! You have a title! You have the ability to use magic! That’s why you can say such inhumane things!!”

“I did act with you. I pretended to be cute in front of others. Yes, I admit it. But if you were me! Without magic! Without anyone to help you! And with a body that’s incredibly weak! I ask you, could you have survived a month in Demon City like I did? I tell you! You wouldn’t last a single day!”

“You said I wanted others to play with my body! That’s right! I tell you, I really do think about it all the time! But I have no choice! You go be a s*x s*ave for twenty-two days! You try being violated by all kinds of demons, not knowing day from night, and see if you wouldn’t end up like me! My thoughts might be bad, but I myself am not despicable! Because I am constantly restraining these thoughts!”

“How many times have I wanted to kill myself? Do you know? Do you know how painful it is to not even have a chance at suicide? But I held back! I endured it! That’s why I didn’t die when the General rescued me that day! Because I can’t waste my life like that! So I put on this cute, weak act in front of others! Because it protects me from being bullied! I have no strength, so I need this mask!”

The emotional outburst let me vent all the pain I had endured for so long in one go. My face was red, tears in my eyes. I didn’t know if it was from anger, pain, shyness, or despair. Anyway, I screamed.

“I’ve been wearing this mask these two days with you. But that was because I was afraid you would harm me like the demons did! I originally thought you were a normal person! A gentle… person. But I was wrong! I didn’t expect… you!!” The more I spoke, the more tears flowed.

I couldn’t go on. Because, how should I put it… I suddenly realized that I might have liked her a little. Because in my heart, she had always been so serene.

She cared about my health. She patiently taught me to write. She always quietly stayed by my side.

The scenes from these two days made me develop a very high opinion of her.

I had told myself repeatedly before coming to the castle, ‘Don’t get close to anyone!’ Yet… I had unknowingly come to trust her…

“Damn!” I couldn’t speak anymore. Tears kept flowing. My throat hurt from shouting! I had thought she would be a good person, but… why did the world have to treat me like this again!!

‘Ah! I hate this world! Hate it! Hate it! Hate it to death!’

‘Why does this world always treat me like this? Nothing good ever happens! Everyone suspects me! Everyone wants to kill me!’

‘So annoying! So annoying! So annoying!!! Aaah!’

I had just spent two days adjusting my mood, and now it collapsed again!

I didn’t want to be bound by the past! That’s why I worked hard to look forward! But this garbage world! It always treats me like this!

“Aah! Ugh!” Suddenly, lust surged through my body. I couldn’t help but tremble. My whole body started to go numb. Some places became sensitive.

‘This feeling… again!’

“Ha– ha–” I gritted my teeth, panting. My face twisted. I smiled bitterly at Anna, who stood there unmoved. That poker face, as dumb as a wooden chicken!

“Aah, why do you still have that expression!” I couldn’t take it anymore. This world, indeed, sooner dead, sooner reborn!

I turned and ran, dashing as fast as I could toward the large glass window of the library. Below this window was a foundation of jagged rocks, about thirty meters high! It would definitely kill me!

‘Damn it! I hate this world the most! Someone will love me? Someone will care about me? Impossible! None of that!’

‘Hate! Hate!’ I shouted crazily in my heart, ‘No matter how hard I try, will I always be just a side character?!’

‘Go to hell, this garbage world!! I don’t want to do this anymore!’

Endless despair drove me to run faster and faster. Finally, I crashed through the window. With a crack, the glass shattered in my ears, and I fell.

Luckily, it was stained glass, fragile, not tempered glass. Hahahaha!

‘MLJ! God, are you satisfied now? I’m going to die! Hahahaha!’

“Hahahaha!” I laughed wildly, even though tears filled my eyes. But my heart was content.

‘Finally… I can leave this hateful world…’

I watched the ground approaching…

‘Ah… so tired. Finally, it’s over…’

I closed my eyes, which had been crying nonstop.

A smile I had never worn before appeared at the corner of my mouth…

Kong, I seemed to hear the sound of my body hitting the ground…

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