Chapter 64: The Line Between Us

Uh, why did Mom come all the way here? She doesn’t think about me at all. But she fusses over Lee Sunwoo like that. She gives him however much money he asks for… Why does she even give it to him? He’ll just blow it all. He’ll only pile up more debt.

If it were anyone else, Heesung wouldn’t have listened to their complaints. He would have just gotten annoyed. But Lee Yunwoo was different.

He wanted Yunwoo to tell him everything. Heesung had always been curious about Lee Yunwoo.

He wanted to know more about him. He wanted to get closer than now.

“If something like this happens again, come to me. Like today.”

“If anything happens, come to me. Tell me first.”

‘Why do I feel this way?’

‘Why do I want to keep him to myself? Why do I want to have him? Why… Why do I want to kiss him?’

“If you don’t like it, push me away.”

That was a lie. If Yunwoo pushed him away, Heesung would force it.

Lee Yunwoo obediently accepted Heesung’s kiss. His lips were sweet. Really, too sweet.

Heesung wanted to put them all in his mouth and swallow.

‘What about the inside of his mouth?’

As if it were the natural next step, Heesung pushed his tongue into that small mouth. He licked and sucked greedily, tasting him.

His mouth filled with Lee Yunwoo. Heesung swallowed all of Yunwoo’s saliva.

‘More, more…’

Heesung didn’t even know what more he wanted. He only knew he wanted more. He wanted to f*ck Yunwoo into a mess and make him cry.

He hated seeing Yunwoo cry. But if he cried because of Heesung, that was welcome. And on those red lips…

Disordered thoughts dominated Heesung’s head. Some scenes were so violent they were grotesque.

“Ah.”

But Lee Yunwoo flinched at even the slightest touch. Guess he was surprised.

Heesung pretended not to notice. “Is this not okay?” he asked, secretly licking his lips.

‘So cute…’

He wanted to put him in his mouth and chew him up. Heesung hid that dark side of himself.

He wondered where he’d had such patience. But thinking back, he’d been holding back with Lee Yunwoo ever since they first met.

That’s right. He’d always held back with him. He held back when he wanted something, and did things he didn’t want to do.

He just wanted to give him everything.

“I’m going to sleep in a different room tonight.”

He felt like if they stayed in the same room any longer, he’d do something really bad. But Lee Yunwoo grabbed him.

“Sleep with me. Don’t go.”

“……”

His eyes were welling with tears, and his cheeks were flushed a pretty red.

Heesung nearly stripped him right there and chewed up his whole body. ‘You’re the one who grabbed me. I really tried not to.’

He wanted to say something irresponsible like that and do something to Yunwoo.

But he held back. Heesung hadn’t known he had this much patience.

“From now on, if anything happens, tell me first, okay?”

“Okay.”

…That answer seemed to satisfy his urges, more or less.

After that, Heesung often dreamed. Lee Yunwoo always appeared in them.

“Ah… Heesung.”

A lewd voice. Even without seeing the face of the person turned away from him, Heesung knew who it was.

That thin back showed bones with every movement. The person kept his head bowed and trembled. His shoulders were flushed pink.

In that state, he kept calling Heesung’s name. Finally, he tilted his head back.

Ah… A low moan escaped, and he turned only his head to look at Heesung.

When he woke up, it was a sight.

“…f*ck.”

Heesung clenched his teeth at the sticky discomfort.

His next thought was, ‘Too bad I didn’t get to see his legs.’ That was all Heesung regretted.

If it hadn’t been a position with his back turned, if he’d been facing Heesung with his legs spread wide, he’d have seen his calves.

‘Maybe I’ll get to see for real soon.’

Lately, Heesung touched Yunwoo’s body whenever he had the chance. He held his hands, sucked his lips.

He had a feeling he’d cross some line soon. Lee Yunwoo, who made rabbit eyes at the mention of rubbing and putting it in behind, was just so cute.

That was why he didn’t force it.

Of course, he also liked it when Yunwoo, on the bike with him, hastily wrapped his arms around Heesung’s waist when he pedaled fast.

The more dangerous he made it, the more desperately Yunwoo clung to him. If Heesung got even a small scratch, Yunwoo’s eyes would go wide and he’d panic as if the world was ending.

But first, he wanted to treat him well. He wanted to look good. He wanted Lee Yunwoo to like him for a long, long time.

But the situation changed quickly.

There were guys doing filthy things in the classroom. Lee Yunwoo’s name even came up.

Heesung was about to go crush them right away, but he remembered that one of them was the guy who had bullied Yunwoo on the playground.

The reason Heesung asked Yunwoo that was just to show off his kindness.

“I’ll turn him into a cripple too.”

You wouldn’t know, but it’s already happened once. Heesung didn’t explain in detail. Everything he did came from good intentions.

He always wanted to look good to Yunwoo and treat him well. That was all.

And then everything turned upside down.

The next day, Heesung didn’t go to school. The guy’s transfer had already been decided, but there were still things to handle.

While Wonhwa and the secretary scurried around, he sat in the annex and stared at his phone.

There was no message. Even though Heesung wasn’t at school, Lee Yunwoo said nothing.

“……”

He felt like shit.

Just to test it, Heesung skipped school the next day and the day after that. But Yunwoo still didn’t come to the villa or contact him.

Heesung, who had expected a thank-you message, frowned. Then he realized something was wrong.

‘It’s strange. If I do this for him, he should like me more. What’s the reason? Why?’

Heesung dug deeper and deeper into his memories. Late, he thought of one person.

Park… whatever his name was, the guy who clung to Lee Yunwoo every day, acting friendly. Last time, seeing Heesung come into the classroom, he muttered something, and Yunwoo had taken him somewhere.

That day had felt like shit because of it, but he’d shaken it off because he rode the bike with Yunwoo and Yunwoo slept over.

Chewing it over again, that seemed to be the answer.

Yeah… that was definitely the culprit.

The look in Yunwoo’s eyes when Heesung had last seen him was shitty too. That look, somewhat frightened, not like a scolded puppy, but as if he’d faced a threat to his survival…

That was definitely because of him.

Actually, it didn’t matter whether he was right or not. Even if not all, he surely bore some blame. Heesung found a target for his anger.

But he still hadn’t pinpointed exactly what was wrong.

“Young master Heesung, I hear your cousin is nearby.”

“Where did he go?”

“They say he went to Lee Yunwoo’s house.”

His deliberation was cut short. Lee Yunwoo had met Yeon Hoyoung. He wouldn’t see Heesung, but he saw Yeon Hoyoung.

How did he find Yunwoo’s house? With Hoyoung’s personality, he wouldn’t have done a background check like Heesung had.

‘Did Yunwoo tell him?’ Heesung’s stomach churned again.

“Shall I drive you there?”

“No need. I’ll go alone.”

As he headed to Yunwoo’s house, his displeasure grew. Inside, where the soundproofing was poor, he could hear low murmuring voices.

He wouldn’t even look me in the eye, but with Yeon Hoyoung…

Heesung crossed his arms and waited. He figured he should at least wait this much. He wanted to show he had this much patience.

So when Lee Yunwoo got angry at him, Heesung was dumbfounded.

“I asked what happened to Yeon Hoyoung!”

‘How dare you get angry at me, and over someone else?’

It was fine that he’d come to the annex on his own. But the attitude and tone, so different from before, made Heesung’s blood boil.

Heesung had never hit Yunwoo. So wasn’t that enough? And yet Yunwoo was worried about Yeon Hoyoung, not him.

‘I didn’t do anything wrong.’

He’d thought people’s minds were all similar, but he and Lee Yunwoo seemed so different. It was as if a very heavy, thick cloth was dividing them.

Heesung couldn’t understand what Yunwoo was thinking at all.

“If the problem is that I hit them,”

Heesung genuinely thought this was the solution.

“Then you hit me once. That solves it, right?”

“……”

But Lee Yunwoo looked shocked instead. When Heesung forcibly pulled his hand over and told him to hit, Yunwoo looked so terrified he might faint.

Heesung’s mood turned to mud.

“Why are you like this! Why would I hit you? How can I, uh, how can I hit a person? I can’t do that.”

“I can’t do that.” When Yunwoo said that, it felt like a line had been drawn. A line saying you and I are different, a divide meaning we can’t be together.

“Stop. I won’t do it with you anymore.”

“What if I force it?”

So Heesung got more forceful. He grabbed Yunwoo’s flesh and scared him. Then Yunwoo, eyes welling with tears, shot back.

“If you really do any more here… I’ll, I’ll die.”

“……”

Heesung felt like a real idiot. He didn’t need to stop at that. Yunwoo didn’t have the courage to die anyway.

And yet, the memories of the past grabbed Heesung by the nape and wouldn’t let go. A pitch-black night where he couldn’t see an inch ahead, a body sinking into the sea.

If he ever saw that again. It was a feeling he’d never felt in his life.

He didn’t know how to describe it. He’d never felt it even when seeing someone bleeding in front of him.

Because of Lee Yunwoo, Heesung felt all sorts of feelings. But he couldn’t tell what any of them were.

And then came the moment when Lee Yunwoo leaned on him blindly.

– H-Heesung… what do I do… Uh, um. I’m at home, but there are people outside right now…

The moment Heesung heard the trembling voice, he got goosebumps. Because he was happy.

He’d hurt his hand, but it was nothing. Really, it was nothing.

Lee Yunwoo fussed over him, unable to sit still. He acted like Heesung was the only one in the world.

He didn’t know what to do, and eventually tears welled in his eyes. He worried about Heesung and took care of him, just like before.

The hospital told Heesung to be admitted, but after the surgery, he lay down for a bit and then left. The sun had set by then.

He’d just woken from anesthesia, his throat still scratchy, but it was bearable. He wanted to see Lee Yunwoo, who would be at the annex.

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